">>There is suspiciously large number of conflicts including fights, knifing, gunfights in my dreams. <...> Even in school I fought only once, where does it all come from?
So, many of you have previously heard such term as “Libido”, though usually it is associated with sex. Now then, there is another thing called “Mortido”, and we will discuss these important concepts of our mind.
Let me define both words.
Libido is a desire to create. The highest manifestation of Libido is creation of a child.
Mortido is a desire to destroy. The highest manifestation of Mortido is murder.
But there is an interesting nuance here. Libido and Mortido can be directed both outward (creation of a child/murder of a human) and inward (self-perfection/suicide). There is important to understand that it`s useless to struggle these things. They can be presented as two constantly filling scales in RPG, and it is necessary to drain them off constantly, because if one of the scales is full, the SHIT will happen (severe mental disorders, breakdowns, suicide). Draing of the scales is usually uncounsious and can take the most bizzare forms.
Mortido, directed outward, can be expressed as scandals with family, dirty tricks with friends, unreasonable hatred to something. Directed inward, it takes forms of smoking, alcoholism, not maintaining appearance and hygiene.
Libido, directed outward, can take form of creating something, drawing, art... And inward it will look like self-improvement, for example, visiting the gym.
All this is intertwined with complexes, perception models etc., so it`s important to understand that Libido and Mortido are not something separate, they are parts of a huge and complex mechanism called “human mind”."