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Audioworm333

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I am fucking sick of life.
« on: August 30, 2011, 12:03:58 pm »

I am sick of being teased. I am sick of being trolled. I am sick of meeting assholes. I am sick of being laughed at. I am sick of everything.
And today I took it all out on my mom.
I just snapped and beat her and even got out a kitchen knife and threatened to stab her, all because she stared at me when I got angry at somebody online.
Maybe it's teen angst, but either way it's unbearable. I oftentimes - find myself wishing I could get up the guts to kill myself. Such as now.
« Last Edit: August 30, 2011, 12:05:34 pm by Audioworm333 »
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Re: I am fucking sick of life.
« Reply #1 on: August 30, 2011, 12:31:46 pm »

Beating your Mother and threatening her with a knife is assault and battery, and is a criminal offense. Do you comprehend the ramifications of what you've done?

I get sick of things; I don't beat the people who love me. Teen angst is not an excuse. You need to look into anger management, because right now, you aren't in control.
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« Reply #2 on: August 30, 2011, 12:55:47 pm »

Beating your Mother and threatening her with a knife is assault and battery, and is a criminal offense. Do you comprehend the ramifications of what you've done?

I get sick of things; I don't beat the people who love me. Teen angst is not an excuse. You need to look into anger management, because right now, you aren't in control.

A thousand times this. You can't blame away doing something psychotic on "anger" or "teen angst" or being sick of your life, even if those are thing that led up to it. That's terrible.
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« Reply #3 on: August 30, 2011, 01:41:16 pm »

You...created a thread about your depression at the beginning of the month...and a fair few people offered you advice on how to deal with it...

Look, assuming you haven't already done so, don't do anything else to ruin your life.  Life may not be roses, but it's worth too much to throw away.  Find a councilor or mentor or something.  Ask a doctor for a referral.  Meet with a local religious figure.  Find some friends to hang with.  What you've done so far will only hurt you and others.  Until you're dead, you have time to move forward.

"Never repay injury with injury.  See that your conduct is honorable in the eyes of all.  If possible, live peaceably with everyone."
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« Reply #4 on: August 30, 2011, 01:51:44 pm »

Beating your Mother and threatening her with a knife is assault and battery, and is a criminal offense. Do you comprehend the ramifications of what you've done?

I get sick of things; I don't beat the people who love me. Teen angst is not an excuse. You need to look into anger management, because right now, you aren't in control.

This.
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« Reply #5 on: August 30, 2011, 01:58:11 pm »

I can't help but feel the first bit is a lie. I know myself that I would lie to someone if I was emotional enough just to add dramatic effect. I hope this is the case.

You are not the victim. Grab life by the balls and actually do something to improve yourself. Whining about how much life sucks on an internet forum is not conducive to any personal improvement. Transferring your anger to those who don't deserve it just hampers yourself even more.

I get teased, I get trolled, I meet assholes, I get laughed at. The best revenge is living well.
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« Reply #6 on: August 30, 2011, 01:59:24 pm »

Whining about how much life sucks on an internet forum is not conducive to any personal improvement.

This
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« Reply #7 on: August 30, 2011, 02:02:16 pm »

Beating your Mother and threatening her with a knife is assault and battery, and is a criminal offense. Do you comprehend the ramifications of what you've done?

I get sick of things; I don't beat the people who love me. Teen angst is not an excuse. You need to look into anger management, because right now, you aren't in control.

This.

this x100 and frankly i do hope this is just stupid trolling.
in the event it's not, instead of beating your mother, beat the assholes. beat the teasers. you will still get charged and go to jail, most probably, but that would at least mean you had the guts to take it out on people who are actually you're oponents in the game called "life", and not on your mother. frankly? i can go to great length in understanding why somebody needs to resort to violence, but just as long as it's focused on the cause, not on innocent bystanders. you didn't lash out and hit your mother because she did something to you, you did it because you knew she was weaker than you, and she would most probably not report you to authorities. and you just wanted for once to be in control, didn't you? you better get checked soon in anger management, because today is beating your mother, tomorrow is stabbing her. furthermore, i do believe "futile motifs" to be an aggravant for the assault. and "i was angry at an idiot teen of 12 years old on the net with a keyboard" is, i think, a futile motif. especially to hitting the women who grew you up from when you still had diapers. and especially, "only because she was staring at you".
i do just hope you're a troll trolling his way.
and if you're not, well, nothing you'll say will excuse you. never.
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« Reply #8 on: August 30, 2011, 02:04:46 pm »

It may reflect poorly on me but I have no sympathy for a post from a new forum member who claims to have pulled a knife on his mother because he feels bad about being teased. Fucking deal with it, we all have these problems.
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« Reply #9 on: August 30, 2011, 02:05:24 pm »

I myself went through really horrible times in life where I became so depressed that it was considered "unusual" that I didn't have more suicidal tendencies.

The way I got out of it was to make myself happy. Some people are naturally in good moods but some people, possibly like you TC, are not and need to work on feeling good everyday (People who are naturally in good moods take it for granted. Some people have to WORK on feeling nice).

Also if what you said was true I honestly think you may need some extra help. Please see professional help, they honestly can be a great help.

So in conclusion
1) You may not be a naturally happy person and thus you need to work on it
2) You seem to have developed a rather large temper problem that should be a big concern for you
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3) Professional help could be of great help to you. No really.

As for everyone else. When someone posts something of this magnitude it is better to err on the side of caution and treat it as if it was serious. As this sort of is.
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« Reply #10 on: August 30, 2011, 02:06:49 pm »

As for everyone else. When someone posts something of this magnitude it is better to err on the side of caution and treat it as if it was serious. As this sort of is.

I surely am.

I'm frankly so appalled that I'm having trouble saying anything of use.
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« Reply #11 on: August 30, 2011, 02:11:39 pm »

 First off, if people online piss you off that much you need to take a break from going online for awhile. Second, stop screwing around. Either get help or control yourself because your going to hurt yourself or a bystander at this rate.

 Think of it this way. You have four choices: 1. Get help for your problems 2. Make a half-assed suicide attempt that will probably just cripple you. 3. Go nuts and hurt someone else 4. Do nothing and remain miserable.

I don't know about you but #1 looks like the best option to me.
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« Reply #12 on: August 30, 2011, 02:13:54 pm »

The first few posts here are the best possible expressions of what seems to be true. You need help of some kind, because at this point you are a danger to people around you. You can get through this, but it doesn't sound like it's an acceptable risk to keep going on your own. I don't know what the steps you need to take to enter some sort of therapy program might be, but if anybody here does (and how to pay for one, in case that's an issue here), then please, please post it.
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« Reply #13 on: August 30, 2011, 02:20:25 pm »

If you have health insurance, you need to call in to get a psychological examination.  They'll ask you a couple of questions over the phone to find out about the severity of the situation.  One of them will be about suicidal tendencies.  When you say yes, they'll ask a few questions to figure out how far it's gotten--plans, attempts, and so on.  Be honest, and be sure to mention your anger issues and the ensuing assault and battery (as long as you're a minor, which I presume you are).  You need to get front-loaded to the top of their slate.

Then you get an appointment, likely as soon as they can get you one, and go in.  They'll have you fill out a big clipboard of questions about symptoms and things like that, some questions ranking how you feel about certain things and how worried those things make you, previously diagnosed psychological conditions and so on.  It's tedious, but it's not especially difficult.  Mostly just checking off a lot of boxes.  Then you go in, probably to a room with nice lighting and a few different places to sit, you sit down, you talk for a while, you find out where you are and what needs to be done.

This will be scary, but it is better by far to reveal the truth as soon as possible.


If you don't have health insurance, I'd almost considering turning yourself in.  You're young.  You'll get as much help as you need, so do it now.
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« Reply #14 on: August 30, 2011, 02:22:58 pm »

 He could admit himself to a psychiatric hospital I believe. I'm not sure how the process of that works though.
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