Lastnight I remembered some of a dream involving this forum. The Progessive Rage Thread had somehow decided to start compiling a list of sexual fetishes and categorizing them as abusive or non-abusive. It turned out I had a massive list of them that I was personally interested in. I don't remember how people reacted to this. I do remember that none of them made any sense at all. A couple involved ladders and porcupines somehow.
I question my wisdom in sharing this, but I find it too humorous to resist.
The important question is are you actually interested in any of these?
Nope. Just random dream stuff.
Not remembering your dreams weird, huh?
I don't think that is very weird. Maybe a little. I thought that specific dream was weird, and the fact that I don't usually remember them at all only compounds the weirdness of remembering that one.
I have never, ever had a lucid dream. I'm quite envious of people who have them, and I don't know that I've ever met someone else who has never had one.
*cutting*
I've always thought this was about boredom...
There are people who are actually suicidal, depressed, or out of control, and do it to hurt themselves or for something to focus on.
But then there's the whole "emo" thing. I get really pissed off about the sort of attention this gets. Everyone accuses them of being so fake and dying for attention and being so whiny when they're usually kids who don't actually have any problems in their lives... and I think that's exactly the problem. I think middle class kids today are growing up in an excessively sterile and controlled world. They live in an existential crisis of stale white noise. They're just desperate to make their lives interesting. They behave histrionic because they're compensating for the reality that their lives are incredibly dull.
Nightmares are different, I think they trigger the fear center or something, and you have a harder time forgetting fear.
I've only had three nightmares in my life.
As for doors, I don't really care. I shut my door for privacy, but leaving it open doesn't bother me. Actually, closed doors bother me more because they occasionally terrify me outright. Especially late at night if I have to leave my room for some reason and I think everybody else is asleep. I start getting the feeling that there's a monster just on the other side of the door waiting for me, and it's either going to attack or disappear as soon as I open the door. I suppose this could just be related to not being able to see an area though, because I've gotten the same fear when the door is open with the monster being down the hall and around the corner instead. Or while showering when I close my eyes, where it's in the same freaking room, and I could die if I open my eyes at the wrong moment. I think that last one is probably the strangest thing to me.
I get sort of the opposite fear about doors. When I'm in a room alone and the door is open, I often imagine the door slamming shut and trapping me in with something. If the door is already closed, it sort of prevents that thought from occurring.
I've never really been afraid of "monsters", as in big scary looking creatures that will rip me apart. While Paranormal Activity wasn't terribly frightening to me, it does a great job of depicting the sort of thing that my imagination will begin to dwell on if I allow it. That scene in the sequel where the girl is sleeping on the couch with the tv on and darkness begins to engulf the room, until she wakes up and it instantly disappears... that's exactly my style of paranoia.
I've also had a mild fear of facing one direction or closing my eyes in the shower for too long... ever since I saw Ju-On...