Twin Fantasy (2018) by Car Seat Headrest
Another full album I'm revisiting. I realized that this album spoke to me (and still does), and as my own mental state improved over time, the parts that resonated most with me were later and later in the album. I only really started listening to this album in late 2019.
If you asked me in early 2020, I would've said
Beach Life-in-Death and
Sober To Death (tracks 2 and 4) were the best songs. They didn't exactly represent a particularly sane mind, which was exactly my predicament. Lockdown happened, and it was kinda a shitshow for me back then.
Around mid-2020, I loved
Nervous Young Inhumans and
Cute Thing (BTW, the synth solos in that song are still A+) most. Those would be tracks 5 and 7. I can't remember this time very well, but I did remember fighting my mind quite a bit. I think I scrubbed most memories of that time because that mindset of "fighting" myself is simply anathema to me now. It no longer represents who I am. The second song modeled quite closely how medication made me feel. Very happy, ecstatic even, but utterly incapable of thinking.
But now, as I revisit this in mid-2021, I found myself really feeling
Famous Prophets (Stars) on a spiritual level. That's the second-to-last track. Sometimes I just fire up this song alone, ignoring all the ones before and after. It just has this sense of finality to it, which I suppose reflects how I feel about my own mental state now. It's over. The saga is over. That was 5 long years, 2016 to 2021, yet it's more-or-less over. Huh. I've thought that it was over many times before, so I could be wrong, but each time, it's even more "over", if that makes sense.
I think my greatest compliment to this album is that I can fit my own narrative on top of it. I've been ignoring the relationship stuff in this the whole time, and it still makes sense to me. They stand together as great songs, and you don't have to even care about the context behind them to say that they are. It's the sheer emotion in all of these. It's good shit.
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