Life: 4.5
Mind 3.4
Body 5.5
Spirit 4.1
Friends/Family 2.9
Love 1.4
Finance 4.8
I have a sucky life. Go figure. By all rights I shouldn't but I don't feel disinclined to agree. But never mind that.
Anyway, so the closest I generally come to spiritualism is the rare lapse into contemplation on how surreal life feels to me (which can get fairly intense). Religious texts while sometimes interesting for purely academic reasons, have completely failed to give me any useful lessons I didn't already know. My beliefs are wedged firmly in agnostic with a lean toward nihilistic. I feel that the question of "is there or is there not a god/overarching plan/intelligible guiding force in the universe" is academic, since it seems pretty clear we just have to figure things out for ourselves. Relying on or expecting anything else to guide us is just silly, and leads to hurt. I also believe everyone has to figure things out for themselves. Partly because nobody else in the world seems in a position to actually know better, but mostly because in the belief game, earning your answers is a thousand times more valuable than being given them. Even if it is hard work, and sometimes unpleasant.
I dunno reality is a surreal, infinite series of points that are positioned relative to each other and can only be perceived relative to each other, and are perceived differently depending on which points you are using to perceive those points, and then things get complicated.
I can't be the only one here who is occasionally overwhelmed with the sense of how surreal reality is, how strange it is that I'm this bundle of neurons, this collection of consciousness, in this vast complex reality... can I? I get the feeling I'm making no sense at all.