Any idea, Oh Armchair Psychaitrist of B12G, what the trouble might be?
Sounds like you need to get laid.
I'd understand if something terrible had happened that had set me off, but my life has been getting better. I'm getting more cash, training to be a sys admin and I'm in a generally better situation than I was before.
Actually, this may be the problem right here.
I don't know the exact details of what is going on... But more cash typically involves more responsibility, or at least more bookkeeping. If you've recently gotten a promotion or a raise, that can actually be stress-inducing. Even if there aren't new official duties, you can feel subconsciously that more is expected of you. And even if there's nothing going on at work, more money means more money to keep track of and spend appropriately. When you're broken enough it's easy to make a budget - food, clothing, shelter, done! When you've got some discretionary funds you have to ponder whether you should save them, or buy toys, or get nicer clothes, or whatever.
Also, if you're doing training, that implies some additional workload. At the very least you're following somebody around and paying attention. Maybe you're actually taking classes. Maybe you're reading books. Whatever. It's some additional work to cram into your daily routine. And, no matter how easy that daily routine is, or how easy the training is, it's another thing to juggle.
Now, usually, I'm a completely stressless person. I take everything as it comes, things don't bother me and I generally just happily plod through life without a care in the world, which hilariously infuriates everyone around me.
Here's the introspective bit... Are you actually that stressless? Or are you just unaware of the stress you're feeling, or doing a good job of ignoring/hiding/mitigating it?
I'm a pretty easy-going guy. Always have a smile on my face. Surprises don't faze me. And I would have, until fairly recently, claimed that I was completely immune to stress.
But the fact of the matter is that we all suffer from stress. It's a physiological thing. Your body does certain things when it's put under stress, whether you want it to or not. And just because you're happy and relaxed and care-free on a conscious level does not mean that you're actually stress-free.
Do you normally do anything to let off steam at the end of the day/week/month/whatever?
I recently discovered that, completely unbeknownst to me, I was getting really stressed out. Had more headaches, stomach was upset, was feeling run-down. Figured it was just the fall weather or something. It wasn't. It was stress.
I've had to make a conscious effort to find time to relax and unwind every few days/weeks, even though I'm not actually
feeling stressed.
The worst part is other people. It feels like everyone's trying to cling to me, or force me to cling to them, and I'd just like to live in a cabin in the woods somewhere with only the internet as my friend. I'm not the most social of people at the best of times, but I'm still quite capable of putting on a facade of sociality in order to get by. This is starting to slip, and people are beginning to get rubbed the wrong way.
Sounds very, very familiar.
I hate people. Can't stand social situations. Would happily live as a hermit. But I usually do a good job of hiding that.
When I get sufficiently stressed, I don't do such a good job of hiding it.
And I've found that one of my
biggest sources of stress is the other people in my life.
I dunno... The training you're doing, are you working with anyone new to accomplish that? Maybe they're just rubbing you the wrong way?
Or maybe it's family/relationship-y stuff. Are your parents/siblings/children/spouse rubbing you the wrong way?
Any idea, Oh Armchair Psychaitrist of B12G, what the trouble might be?
So, what
actually works pretty good for me... When I'm
really getting stressed-out... Is just to take a couple days off. Call in sick. Or tell your friends/family that you aren't feeling well and just need to rest and recuperate this weekend. Sleep in later than normal. Don't worry about other people. Don't worry about being productive or running errands. Do your own thing... Read, watch TV, play video games, eat junk food, do yardwork, exercise... Whatever floats your boat. Just take a break from your normal responsibilities.
And to prevent it from reaching that point, I make damn sure I'm taking some time-out for myself every couple of days/weeks. Just find an hour or two to forget about everything else and just relax.