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[Xantalos]

Attending a black belt grading tonight.
WeeeeeeeeeeohgodI'mgonnadie

[Nadaka]

DRSM DLA DTID DRMOGEN PELT THUG ART DERP.

You know not what acronymous hell from whence I come.

[Steelmagic]

It's ok man, you're out of there now.

[Devling]

It's okay to cry now. It's over.

[Xantalos]

Attending a black belt grading tonight.
WeeeeeeeeeeohgodI'mgonnadie

If I worship you, will that help?

I imagine it would be mutually beneficial. You don't do some eldritch karate kick/judo throw/whatever in my face to kill me, you get black belt.

Oh, the grading wasn't for me. I was watching some friends go for theirs.
For 3 hours.
It was inspiring.

[MadMalkavian]

Going outside is terrifying now.

[Xantalos]

Going outside is terrifying now.

Why is that?

[MadMalkavian]

Going outside is terrifying now.

Why is that?

I have PTSD thanks to my childhood. As a result I hate people and I hate being around them because they frighten me. It's been worse since I moved to this college town two or three years ago. Longest I can be outside of my apartment before my brain goes to the lower, more instinctual levels is about five minutes. By that time I've had enough and I just want to go back inside and play video games. The plus side is I'm learning how to cope with it, but it doesn't stop me from being on the verge of a panic attack whenever I go outside.

[Xantalos]

Going outside is terrifying now.

Why is that?

I have PTSD thanks to my childhood. As a result I hate people and I hate being around them because they frighten me. It's been worse since I moved to this college town two or three years ago. Longest I can be outside of my apartment before my brain goes to the lower, more instinctual levels is about five minutes. By that time I've had enough and I just want to go back inside and play video games. The plus side is I'm learning how to cope with it, but it doesn't stop me from being on the verge of a panic attack whenever I go outside.

Ah. That ... sucks. The only place I don't go to is my memories.
Bad stuff there that I buried long ago. Don't want to bring it up again.

I can't really give any advice other than slowly try to get used to being with humans; for now they are the dominant species, so might as well get used to them. 

[MadMalkavian]

Going outside is terrifying now.

Why is that?

I have PTSD thanks to my childhood. As a result I hate people and I hate being around them because they frighten me. It's been worse since I moved to this college town two or three years ago. Longest I can be outside of my apartment before my brain goes to the lower, more instinctual levels is about five minutes. By that time I've had enough and I just want to go back inside and play video games. The plus side is I'm learning how to cope with it, but it doesn't stop me from being on the verge of a panic attack whenever I go outside.

Ah. That ... sucks. The only place I don't go to is my memories.
Bad stuff there that I buried long ago. Don't want to bring it up again.

I can't really give any advice other than slowly try to get used to being with humans; for now they are the dominant species, so might as well get used to them.

I tried that. That's how I got PTSD. Now to me they're cattle to be used and then thrown away. It works much better that way. My mother is the sole exception. She's the only one who I cherish outside of myself. My offline friend too maybe, but lately I just find myself wanting free stuff from him since we have nothing in common. I cannot have normal relationships because of what I went through so it's either I use them for what they can provide for me or I cherish them like my mother - and most people to me are just cattle and/or filth that need to be either used or killed.

[Xantalos]

Hmm. You share the same mindset as me in my bad moods. Advice I can offer now is 'don't deliberate ruin anyone else's life'.

[MadMalkavian]

Hmm. You share the same mindset as me in my bad moods. Advice I can offer now is 'don't deliberate ruin anyone else's life'.

I don't go out of my way to hurt people these days. I find it's easier to get what I want from them if I'm cordial, polite and even complimentary and generous. I kind of like being nice despite the hatred I feel towards humanity as a whole anyways, because that way people don't go out of their way to hurt me like when I was younger. I mean most people may be worthless to me but I'm not going to be an asshole because of that. That's childish, and as far as I'm concerned too many of my peers are like that.

I may be a monster but I try to be humane despite that and despite what humanity has done to me over the past twenty-six years. I'm just kind of wanting to vent for one reason or another because I don't get much of a chance to talk to the current stock of humans. Thanks for listening.

[Bauglir]

Buddy, you're only a monster if you're acting monstrous. Don't worry about it. You're cool.

Mind you, I've got nothing to say that can possibly address your actual problems, but eh.

[Xantalos]

Hmm. You share the same mindset as me in my bad moods. Advice I can offer now is 'don't deliberate ruin anyone else's life'.

I don't go out of my way to hurt people these days. I find it's easier to get what I want from them if I'm cordial, polite and even complimentary and generous. I kind of like being nice despite the hatred I feel towards humanity as a whole anyways, because that way people don't go out of their way to hurt me like when I was younger. I mean most people may be worthless to me but I'm not going to be an asshole because of that. That's childish, and as far as I'm concerned too many of my peers are like that.

I may be a monster but I try to be humane despite that and despite what humanity has done to me over the past twenty-six years. I'm just kind of wanting to vent for one reason or another because I don't get much of a chance to talk to the current stock of humans. Thanks for listening.

Eh, no trouble. I'm sure I have the same viewpoint as you somewhere in my subconcious, but I've buried it far down inside my head where it can't get out and built a human me on the outside.
Note, I would not recommend it. It took a lot of mental tinkering to get right and on occasion turned me into a horrible thing.
It's good that you can see the practical side to being nice, though. Push in a direction, and they'll resist. Make them like you and make it seem like you're going in that direction, and they'll go.

[Mr Space Cat]

Going outside is terrifying now.

Well it's not like going outside means you'll always be around other people constantly. There's always forests and mountaintops and deep ocean chasms and the vacuum of outer space and the deepest caverns of the earth and--you get the idea.

Of course, outside doesn't have cable or internet or video games, so take your pick, I guess.