So, a while back, I set a soft intention to come out to my parents as trans/genderqueer on my next birthday. I'm officially a year older today, and I made some plans to spend time with my Mom and Step-Dad this afternoon. We don't get a lot of time together, let alone without the rest of the family around, so it could be the best opportunity I get for a while. I have a few ideas for ways to explain my whole situation to them, but I'm still nervous about the conversation and whether it's the time for it, to the point that I can't sleep.
Ever since I was a kid, they got the sense I was queer somehow, but apart from asking if I was gay many times over the years, we never talked about it. I didn't really get what was going with me until fairly recently, either. Out of my 3 parents, and among all the older generations of my family, my Mom and Step-Dad are probably two of the most likely to understand, or at least to try. Still, they have just about zero familiarity with LGBT stuff, and still don't really get the differences between Gender and Sex. Also, I've been working hard to rebuild the strained relationship I have with my pretty traditional and conservative Step-Dad; I love him, and I'm terrified this is going to mess up our current relationship, such as it is. There's also the fact that, as soon as I tell my Mom, it's likely to make it around to the rest of the family pretty soon; that's just how she is. That means possibly having to explain my situation to the fundies and way more conservative parts of the family at my cousin's wedding next week, if not soon thereafter.
I'm having second thoughts, but having that talk is still really important to me. I don't want to wait too long either; my Mom's health hasn't been great lately, and I've already lost several of the other ladies in my family who were important in shaping who I am today. It's important to me that we have that conversation while we can. As anxious as I am to have that talk, I really want to help her understand that part of who her kid is... I just wish it was easier, or I didn't feel so terrified of this complicating our relationship, or making me more of the black sheep of our family than I already am.
To Solifuge; best of luck. I hope it will go well, and it's very brave of you to go through with it, while there is time.
Thanks for saying. Doesn't feel terribly brave; mostly just sorting through feelings, throwing out the irrational anxieties, and doing some cost-benefit analysis on the realistic ones. I think I've figured out how to approach the conversation with my Mom at least, but no idea with my Step-Dad. I'm wondering now if I should wait until I can talk to my folks 1-on-1 like I did with my brother and sister. :/
That dream idea sounds really awful, but also pretty cool. Reminds me of the lore behind
Pauvres Defans Amis.
Yoink, blood coming out of your widgits probably means something got torn. Not a doctor, but as long as it's a brighter red or the volume is small, it's probably nothing to worry about. Still, take it easy for a bit. <.<;
Ah. Hrm. Not eggs then.
Same difference. At the end of the day, they're all just gametes. :Y
there is a spider in the kitchen
aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
But arachnids are good!
I keep a jar handy on my desk, for catching and releasing spiders outside. We usually get a bunch of quarter-sized baby wolfspiders in the house around this time of year. A few nights ago, I caught 2 wolfspiders and a millipede on the way to the toilet. The invasion has begun.
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