So, when I went to college, I was sold this lie of the American Dream. I was naive and foolish. I thought that if you worked hard and got a good education, then you could get a job after graduating from college that you'd enjoy and live happily ever after. Frankly, I was completely unprepared for the real world.
I graduated with 237 credits out of 120 needed for graduation. I took summer classes every year I was in college, and always took a lot of hard classes, year after year. Because I loved learning. I -adored- learning. I've had classes in every single science (fewest in biology) and a plethora of social sciences, soft sciences, Philosophy and English courses. I don't quite have a minor in most of what I've had courses in, but I am very, very educated. My actual degree is a B.S. in Physics with minors in Astrophysics and Mathematics. The minors I got just because I happened to take the courses needed; I was more banking on the physics degree then anything else, though I do love astronomy. The only thing I never took was computer courses, aside from a single one, because I didn't want to end up programming all day.
So, I graduated in April 09, and I have been unemployed since then, aside from two jobs that payed 12.00 an hour and had me work alongside high school only graduates doing evil, evil work. One job was in healthcare, the other in the loan industry. Both lasted about 3 months. One was a temp (the healthcare job), and I had to leave the loan job because of whistleblowing. (My boss was doing something illegal, I reported him to the company tipline. Bad idea!)
So, I'm unemployed. I'm 50,000 dollars in debt, and I've lost all hope of ever getting a real job. But I'd rather die then go back to a 10 or 12 dollar an hour backbreaking or soulcrushing job. I really, honestly would. I don't know what to do and don't see any end in sight. I'm burnt out on education and don't want to get a Masters in physics - even if I got accepted into graduate school (SOMEONE would accept me, despite my gpa. Its not the best in the world because I really took the hardest courses I could all the time) I don't really have the heart for it anymore.
Frankly, I'm in a rut, and I have no idea what to do with my life. Everyone I know tells me that I'm the smartest person they've ever met. I get compared to some guy on 'Big Bang Theory' all the time. People ask me for advice all the time. But frankly, its all worthless. I've lost hope, and I have no idea what to do. My life is built on goals and progress, on dreams and ideas, but all my dreams have been ground into dust.
What can I do with my life?