Agh. Just need a outlet for all of this, and B12 is the only forum I trust (In before: AHAHA U TRUST US?!!?) with stuff like this.
Anyway, I hate women. Not in the "Ima go gai, kk?" kind of way, but in the way that they piss me off to the utmost extreme. Every single relationship I've had has been screwed over by the girl. I'm not trying to point fingers or anything, in fact, I want to know what I'm doing wrong. Any way, on to explaining.
I was dating this girl for about 7 months straight. She is completely adorable and she knows it, and maybe I got blinded by it. Anyway, I treated her with a lot of respect, I'd take her out on dates to movies and to the fair and stuff, I'd buy her roses and chocolates, hell, once I just gave her a few hundred dollars cash because of how great I thought she was (Big mistake, if you're wondering, it was gone by the next day.).
Figured out that she was cheating on me a few months later. I was peeping at her facebook to see one of my friend's comments that I oddly couldn't reach through my profile. I got a little curious and checked her private messages, and that's when I saw that she had been telling some other guy that she loved him.
Anyway, we talked about it, she told me she was so sorry, she was in tears and everything. She promised me it wouldn't happen again, and I forgave her. I mean, after all, she was just saying "I love you <3" to another guy. Not a big deal, right? Wrong. Just a week ago, I checked her facebook again, and this time she was admitting to the same guy that she had gotten sexual with YET ANOTHER GUY, and wanted to be with him more.
Of course, I dumped her. I really, honestly loved her, but I guess one guy just wasn't enough. Every time I go on facebook now, I cant help but go on her profile and read about all these guys she liked when we were together. It makes me seriously depressed, but I can't help looking.
This is just something I don't need. I've been diagnosed with Severe Depression before, and took a clusterfuck of meds for that. It feels like it's finally coming back.