Trouble is, the person she was when she had a crush on you is not the person she is now, and she's perfectly justified in feeling however she feels about it. Understandably, you're perfectly justified in being frustrated by that, but that is the sort of thing you'll want to handle gracefully lest you send the friendship into a tailspin, as you are not justified in behaving sourly towards her for not reciprocating previously unmentioned feelings.
This is a GOAT poast
Having been in high school before, I still remember how it feels. It really hurts. Not just that, but every year that goes by feels like it takes forever, and having a crush on a person for two years feels like a lifetime. I mean, that's literally half of high school, or more than half of middle school.
I'm not trying to say "they're interchangeable," because they're not, thank G-d, but there are more people you're compatible with than you think. By age 30, this becomes painfully obvious. Honestly, by age 17, it became painfully obvious for me. 14-15 were extremely bad years though, wasted on a guy who has grown up to be one of Those Radical Vegans, gosh I dodged a bullet, and a girl who grew up to be power-hungry and snotty to anyone without money or education, gracious I coulda died twice.
High school is like . . . a diner where there's three things on the menu. You find out the thing you like and you probably stick with that. You want that thing in particular. Post-college is like, well, could be like you're in a city with a nice restaurant district and it turns out that there are 20 restaurants that prepare the one thing you like in 20 different ways, plus all the restaurants that don't even HAVE your favorite thing on the menu but, ooh, I guess catfish is good too once you give it a try.
I'm sorry you're bummed. You're too young for Tinder. Write some poetry, hang with your friends, and do your HW!
... in other wtfry, what exactly is it with dukes and regency fiction/smut? Because they seem to be without any doubt the most prolific title dropped nobility for historical romance, seemingly by like a long shot, and I'm just wondering. Why? Is it just because its similarity with a different four letter D word or is there something else going on there?
Pre-Victorian; smut possible, no machine guns
Post-Renaissance; it can be about something other than the Catholic church
Mid-colonial: Lots of people whose entire job is to be rich on "exotic" resources and wear faboo skirts