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[Frumple]

My dreams have informed me, and so I inform you: Bigfoot fucking hates being put in half-assed turtle bondage, and makes a noise like a badly injured dog when you try.

Wait, you had bondage dreams too? I was stuck in an anime showdown where my Special Move apparently was spontaneous rope suspension.

At least it was super effective, unlike those other poseurs at the tournament.

I don't, no. Or didn't, I guess, it wasn't a major part of the dream, near as I can recall, just the most bizarre part of it. Not as far as I can remember or with any regularity (... also it'd probably be a nightmare if it were me getting trussed up, I generally don't like restraint much at all), anyway.

The main viewpoint people just had a bigfoot in their vehicle for some reason and didn't want to let it get away. So they tried to tie it up, and the bigfoot became extremely unhappy and started making the noise our goddamn insane dog does when the person he's fixated on goes outside or something (which is also the sound dogs make when something is tearing chunks out of them or breaking their limbs, fucking crazy mutt).

[LordBaal]

Wow those dreams sounds really nice. My last one involved visiting an dilapidated orphanate were the haunting was beyond horror, obviusly it was because the dudes running the thing decades ago were killing the orphans to sell their organs.

And that one was pretty tame for my average dreams.

[Kagus]

Well... I also recently dreamt that I was in a big house that was also a kindergarten/school of sorts, and I eventually suffered from uncontrollable explosive diarrhea.

Then I woke up to realize that I'd shat myself.

Then I woke up again to realize that none of that happened.

[scriver]

Then you woke up and realised I had shat you

[Kagus]

Then you woke up and realised I had shat you

Shitception

[ChairmanPoo]

💩

[scriver]

Well said, dr Oncologist

[Rolan7]

Then you woke up and realised I had shat you

This silliness reminded me of one of my favorite 8-Bit Theater gags (over 2 pages but here's a direct link since the whole comic is great)

Spoiler (click to show/hide)

[pisskop]

Ahhh, when black mage stabbed red mage and stole his powers by wearing his hat.

[hector13]

I may have to read through that again.

Again.

[Teneb]

I'm feeling... conflicted. And confused.

The reason being that a stray thought led me to think a lot about gender lately. Specifically: my own.

Because the more I think about it, the more I feel like gender, or at least the binary two that dominate our societies, does not apply to me. If that makes sense. In other words, whenever I think about what I am I don't think "I am a <gender>", I just think "I am me". Which I guess would make me some sort of... nonbinary?

And then I look back at how I viewed my self-image through the years, about how I always tended to go for somewhat androgynous looks in games (when I'm not trying to make a character some specific type of goofy nonsense) that allow for character customization, about how I planned (and still do, really) to buy clothes that were more gender-neutral (which depended on getting a job, which was derailed by the pandemic). And about how actually giddy I get when thinking of myself as a "they" rather than a "he" or being... I dunno how to call it... less manly and "straight" in my behaviour, not having to police myself all the damn time.

And yet, at the same time, I worry a lot that I may be getting anxious about simply not being "masculine enough" or if this anxiety is born from my depression, or... argh.

Damn this was rambling and meandering and hard to type, but had to say it somewhere and get some feedback, even if it's from random (if friendly) folk on the internet.

Gods, the angst is real and clicking "post" did nothing to aid my anxiety over this.


As for why the WTF thread of all places to post this: I might as well be the incarnation of confusion right now, and this thread is a nice (and weird) place that I feel comfortable in.

[LordBaal]

That sounds like you are an asexual men more than anything. Are you atracted to woman and/or men? Dont have to answer, just for you to think about it. How old are you? Also dont need to answer. Identity crisis arent all that uncommon you know and some ages or points in life can trigger them under certain stress, and all the shit is going on doesnt help either. Lots of people rigth now found themselves with more time to think about things, which isnt bad at all.

Who I am, what I am? Those are pretty large answers most people spend their lives trying to figure out, hell some even dont try to find out.

[scriver]

Because the more I think about it, the more I feel like gender, or at least the binary two that dominate our societies, does not apply to me. If that makes sense. In other words, whenever I think about what I am I don't think "I am a <gender>", I just think "I am me".

For what it's worth, I don't think anyone goes around feeling like they are a gender. We just feel like us.

[Rolan7]

Oh gosh.  The important thing is that you're thinking about it, and hopefully writing it out helps you sort and understand your feelings.  That's how it was for me.  There was a lot of baggage I felt too, but it was a while before I felt comfortable even asking questions about it.

The last thing I want is to guide you in any direction, I just wish you well in your search for identity.

[LordBaal]

Because the more I think about it, the more I feel like gender, or at least the binary two that dominate our societies, does not apply to me. If that makes sense. In other words, whenever I think about what I am I don't think "I am a <gender>", I just think "I am me".

For what it's worth, I don't think anyone goes around feeling like they are a gender. We just feel like us.

Oh also this, so much this.