I have recently been plagued by a very elaborate "dream related" wtf. I am uncertain how to parse or proceed with it. It's a bit NSFW, so I will spoilerize it.
OK, first up-- As many may already know, I do not really have sexual impulses, desires, cravings or other related things. I am not a furry either, so keep that in mind when reading what follows.
Recently, I had a very complicated and lucid dream narrative that basically boils down to my deciding that humanity as we currently exist is so horrifically conceited and spoiled by being the only kind of sentience on the planet, and being sufficiently disgusted with this, and with our (as a species) unwillingness to do the right things that nature and science are telling us to do in terms of climate change aversion, living within natural boundaries, etc-- that I (dream self) had invested my ENTIRE being to appropriating every scrap of human knowledge, compounding it into very dry volumes of reference literature and directly committing anything and everything possible directly to memory, becoming fluent in proto-indo-european root languages, and building a crazy device to create a wormhole to a past-timeline parallel universe (because even though this was a dream, the reality that you cannot alter your own past is impossible due to paradox generation was there.)
The dream was from a quasi-3rd person perspective, and had an "internal narrative monologue" type structure, reminiscing on how these events shaped the future.
Without getting into too many details (even though the absurd attention to details, causal ordering structure, and cosmic-spiritualism vs personal ego were all major thematic elements without which were the underpinning of the dream narrative), it was a story about how what started as my own ultimate selfishness to disconnect from a "dying" world and a "jaded, divisive, and spiritually dead people", was actually the closest thing to absolute selflessness possible, as I was letting "everything go, but taking everything of real value to give to somebody else, so that they would not make the same mistakes" so that the universe (which, via the many worlds hypothesis being true) could cross pollinate a timeline, such that not only a persistently stable intelligent population that is centered around pro-social, inclusive, and "acceptance of difficult realities with aplomb" (like the acceptance that you cannot use fossil fuels to power a civilization, etc) but also enable a local manifestation of that cosmic consciousness as a real being, and realize that the entire journey was actually being brought into the service of that being for that purpose.
So, what started as a desire to prevent the genetic, cultural, and social oblivion of H. Neanderthalensis and H. Denisovans, out of selfish reasons of intense misandry over the behaviors of H. Sapiens (so that the may different points of view about how society should exist, and the earth be used would not be lost, and thus prevent the misguided and foolish mismanagement of a single species monopolizing the planet in stupid and life ending ways) took on some very wild hues, as I introduced those species to metal tools, agriculture, domestication of animals, reading and writing, and the like--- but keeping their existing social dynamics (which was built around an almost bonobo like use of sex, including flagrant homosexuality and polygamy/polyamory) and in the process, also getting snookered into making decidedly furry "animal people" in the process.
Thats leaving out huge chunks, but needless to say, I would up involved in a VERY polyamorous relationship with 6 other males and various females, of various species, as a pillar of society trying to help guide a now VERY diverse set of sentient peoples as a cohesive whole, at a very accelerated rate of technological introduction, while preventing overpopulation, and ecological catastrophe, the use of incrementally self-induces cryogenic suspended animation to allow the civilization to continue to mature until the next period where I would be needed to intervene (with the ultimate goal of guiding all of the disparate peoples into becoming a single, cosmopolitan super-culture) culminating in the emergence of "the goddess" in the form of a highly sophisticated quantum computer plugged directly into the cosmic background itself and it being involved, it informing me that it had been manipulating reality to cause this outcome to occur, that it as not the computer, but that the computer was just the most efficient conduit through which it could manifest as a true intelligent actor in a specific world-tree, and that it's ultimate goal was to find a way to survive past the eventual heat-death of all quantum universes which are what it is actually comprised of, and that in order to do so, a perfectly inclusive culture would be required to spread through the cosmos (which could perfectly incorporate any species it encountered), to cause all sentience in that world-tree to work toward that common goal for mutual survival.
Yeah.. Total what the fuck.
I do not normally have such deeply recursively themed, let alone absurdly sexual, dreams.
I am not sure how to parse this, or even to rationalize why I had it to begin with.