Why the fuck did I make this post when it was the same old bullshit I usually ramble about?
Because rambling about the same 'old bullshit' doesn't mean that it's invalid.
I have no response for this. I have no response for this at all outside of my computer's PSU fan stopped for about five minutes while I quit out of Everquest and the damn thing didn't catch fire like I thought it was going to. I think though that I've really got to get a new computer so that this shit stops happening, and not just the PSU problems but the being bored half the time with not having very many good video games to play that I haven't either ragequit from or played to death.
I think the fact that I've been turned onto Steam is now making these feelings worse as I don't want to play with my pirated copies of various games and instead want to buy them on Steam for some reason. I've managed to do that for one so far and have noticed a considerable improvement in frames per second, and that is something I desire in games - performance. I think now I want to see if such a thing is true or not with the other games I have pirated - will they perform better after purchasing them in Steam?
What's more is that I'm still feeling somewhat messed up about the whole Tourettes Syndrome incident that happened at the grocery store last Saturday which ended up with me being called a racist. I regret that more than a lot of the other messed up stuff that I have done in recent years and it was something that was out of my control. I mean the managers and staff said they know it's not like me to say those things but they did still say that if it ever happens again I'm banned for life as they don't care if I have a nervous system condition, they can't let my being different affect their wanting a family-friendly environment for their store. I'm frightened to go into the grocery store I've shopped at for almost three years because I was born with a nervous system condition that makes me say things involuntarily and it being a problem once is apparently the worst thing ever.
I slept for over sixty hours the past three days as a result of this by the way. How I managed to do it I don't know but I was only awake for maybe twelve hours from Sunday to Tuesday. There's something wrong if I'm going into full-blown hibernation mode because of some incident where my tics got a little out of hand. I'm feeling fucked up and wondering where the fuck I went wrong with my life. I don't want to bother people with it but if you insist, here it is.