Sometimes, just ... people are insanely stupid.
I am clearly not feeling well: holding my stomach, eating NOTHING (not really able to), and drinking nothing but water tonight. People know I have a doctor's appointment as early next week as possible. Plus I've said I am not feeling well, a lot....
Cue every asshole who will not shut up at the holiday function I am basically forced to attend, sitting and trying to be quiet/not bother anyone. Repeatedly asking me if I'm sure I don't want (insert X here).... I said no, repeatedly said no. That means no. That means no. That means no. That doesn't mean try to convince me to do it anyhow. I am a person who has the right to fucking refuse things, even if I didn't have a medical condition, jerk. I don't care that you're "trying to be polite," because I don't think you are. How many times do I have to say it before you give a shit and actually get it through your thick skull? Your opinion means nothing compared to the doctor's.... I want to scream at this person to shut up until they do, but can't.
Then, then it gets better. "So how is your job search going?" I am screaming internally.... Because I really want to be reminded of that in general, rather than trying to forget that for one damn night. Also, none of your god damn business unless you have something concrete and constructive to offer, which you don't. Jesus, why on earth would I want to talk about that? We were talking about all sorts of things until of course out of nowhere, bam, right in the face.....
Then of course, trying to get me to participate in things. Forget. You. I am holding my stomach and running to the bathroom multiple times after telling you I don't feel well. Why is this happening?
Why am I not excused from this damn function?
And yet another person not really asking but quite insisting I try (insert food item here) for the 5th time. Screw it, full on silent death stare with head cocked to the side. Yes, by all means, say anything at all, because I'm no longer pretending to listen, I'm now actively and intentionally making you uncomfortable. Because obvious hints and outright saying something is wrong and please leave me alone don't work.... Yup, congrats, you've got me staring at you for a full 10 minutes. Enjoy.
Why? Why can't people just accept that some people are sick and want to be left alone? Why can they not just carry on a pleasant conversation and avoid obviously painful topics when they do insist upon bothering them? It's not a hard concept. It really isn't. Really? Holding stomach, running to the restroom, and saying you don't feel well? You must be fine.... Really? Why can no one just take the simple, harmless things I say at face value when all clearly available evidence points to them being true?