so on a whim i stole a audio copy of 1984 from an acquaintance after they got done with it for their english whatever class.
listening to it got me thinking about the spectrum of political belief as a horseshoe and how the two poles are more alike to each other than the center.
and that got me thinking of my conservative bent and my belief that socialism, or at least some aspects of societal placation, is helpful or even necessary going into the future. at least a measure of control os required, pleasant or not
and it got me thinking about how dangerously close to being a fascist i was. different age different country and presto. buttt, ive also recognized how easily it could have been a religion or even communism. not the hippie ass revolution tho :\ never one for disestablishment.
but then i started passively thinking about _how_ control over the masses is exerted. bread, circus, propaganda, thought crime, and imagry bombardment.
and how much is done by modern capitalism. and democracy in general, though its more insidious there...
and how, extrapolated from a sense of plebian morality, the oppression and over-expression of emotions and percieved freedoms is the same thing. it is a middle step.
and then i think of lenin. now i was not edumafied in communistic ideology, but i do know he advocated middle grounds as a means of gradual shift from on system to another.
in short, now im redregging up old, old grade 13 identity reconfigurations, about the time i recognized I was wayyy more conservative than my peers despite having spent all of high school trying to be more liberal