Today is the day. All my training, my induction into the Order of the Warblade, even my conversion to the faith of the crossroads-they have prepared me for whatever I find. Ironically, I am moving back to where it all started-in the desert where I was tempest tossed.
I found myself reminiscing about the past...
Ever since our cursed vessel was slung beyond time and space by that horrible storm, and I landed in this...strange place. A shelf of land floating in the ether, much like the Sunless Sea, they say. Almost 5 years have passed for me since I lost my grip on Solace as the ship buckled and cracked, and I was drawn downward-not to a watery grave, as might have been guessed. My last sight was of her bravely fighting the waves and currents-with a great deal more success than myself, I might add. Then there was flash of green, yellow and pink...and I landed face down in fine white sand.
Sultana inik..
How often did I wonder if this was the afterlife in those confused times? How often did I question my sanity? For, I came close to despair many times, having looked for and found no trace of my friends in all this time, though I looked-by the Gods! Anyone would have thought me mad, yelling into the desert, searching every town for the faintest rumor, hoping I would be lucky.
Si charis astahii re tokeq, creol svaklar... creol tairais, nomagqe. Raknes Solace.
..and yet, it was not despair alone that would have taken me in the end-but loneliness, the pain of having my new friends and family torn from me. I wandered, not caring where. Against all odds, I survived...and found a calling. The Blade Master who would have slain me as a foe, spared me-recognized something in me-took me to my new home, the Monastery of the Minds Eye. Thus, I threw myself into martial training, chasing perfection.
No longer the clumsy warrior I was once, but now one with a degree of wisdom. Though, I feel it has taken a price on my spirit...they say wisdom increases sorrow, and for me it is true. I can no longer draw as much joy as I did before from simple things. It is all down to numbers now, split second maneuvers in combat, the narrowly avoided threats. Quite simply, I am always looking five seconds into the future, and living in the present becomes strange to me.
It seemed not so long ago (though my concept of time is somewhat skew, even now), I prayed to Fharlanghn-I finally found a Deity who accepted me, who would have guessed?-for guidance...and he told me to head to the place where it all started, saying when I arrived all would be revealed. I heeded the call the travel eagerly-back to the source. I know the exact spot, though what was left of our Ship is no doubt buried, or stripped to bones by now.
I have traveled...so very far. Not alone-for now, another one of my kind follows me.
Jaka si visidark... svabol nishka si ehtah svern nomeno frevor jonal?