You felt bad about leaving on this note, about sitting down with one last meal before you moved on to the Technomancer's guild. In the days that you had been working here you had taken a great deal of the work load off Red's shoulders, kept the place cleaner than anybody could have dreamed of a rowdy pub like this looking. You picked up a stack of vegetables, almost paying no attention to what you were doing as you prepared them.
The steady sound of the knife cutting through vegetables and impacting against the cutting board filled your ears as you prepared them. As with the prior days you quickly and efficiently processed the vegetables, while Red's wife almost seemed to struggle to keep up with you.
Once the pots were filled with vegetables and meat you stepped back out.
You were just in time to see one of the patrons go further than was wise with Anne, reaching to grope her behind as she was bent over to clean one of the tables. She jumped in suprise, her face twisting to betray how disgusted and angry she was that this man had the nerve to touch her in such an unwelcome manner. She was about to twist around, to put this man in his place when she saw you were already moving rapidly towards the man.
The man knew he was in trouble, yet didn't wish to be go peacefully.
You could see drunken courage in his eyes as he pulled a small knife from his pocket, while Anne ducked out of the way as her expression betrayed her disgust at not being able to deal with this situation herself. She couldn't, for fear that she would reveal what she was. All it took was a cut and her inhuman nature would be revealed.
You on the other hand, would bleed red if injured and wouldn't visibly regenerate even though your injuries faded faster than a humans.
"Whatcha gonna do, boy?" The man sneered as he tossed his knife from hand to hand. His features were rough and weathered, his chin bore uneven stubble, his clothing was coarse and cheap. He was a nobody, likely little more than a farm hand. That didn't change things however, you had to deal with him without using lethal force.
As he tossed the knife from hand to hand, your own hand darted out, grasping the blade firmly as the suprised man looked down, struggling as he tried to free it from your grasp. You could feel the sting of that blade cutting into your palm lightly, yet what happened next had the man cry out in suprise. A sharp twist of your wrist snapped the brittle iron blade, before you cast it aside.
The man backed away fearfully now, lashing out blindly as he attempted to keep you away from him. It wasn't enough to save him from humiliation, you stepped forward as he overstretched his reach and drove your fist square into his face.
The man groaned as he crumpled to the floor, your hand grasping him by the collar. He put up no further resistance as you dragged him towards the door, before dropping him outside and stepping back in through the door.
Anne was clearly furious, yet doing her best to keep her voice from being heard by the majority of the people in the pub as she spoke with Red. You made your way over to the bar, catching that her anger was mostly over the fact they you had stepped in and denied her the chance to deal with him herself.
"I could not allow a man like that to treat a lady with such disrespect. I am sorry if you feel the need to object over this matter." Your words caused Anne to turn red, scowling as she did her best to look displeased. Off guard as she was, it wasn't very convincing. "You're welcome."
After wrapping a cloth about your injured hand you set about cleaning as you waited for dinner time to arrive, scrubbing the walls, the floors and the tables. You couldn't say you'd miss having to clean the floors constantly, though seeing your own blood on it made a change.
As dinner time arrived, Red brought out several plates of food, grabbed several bottles of beer and invited you and Anne to join him. Anne shot you a dirty look as you tried to pull her chair out for you, while Red chuckled. "Lad, she be an in'epen'ant woman," he paused to open his bottle of beer as he did so. "So, ye 'ave some bad news f'poor ol'Red then?"
You fiddled with the bottle before you as Anne sniffed at the food, paying no attention to you or Red for the time being as she started to sample everything cautiously. "Th'food not t'yer likin', Lass?" Red asked as he noticed this, though he got little more than a satisfied 'Mmm' in response.
"I wish I could stay here Red, to continue working here as you've been good to me. It is by my own ignorance that I have endangered Anne's life, however. If there were another way that I could ensure her safety without going to the length that I did, then I would have taken it. I have made a deal with the Technomancers to ensure her safety, in return for my services."
There was silence.
Anne looked up from the meal that she had been so engrossed in, conflicting emotions visible for a brief moment before she bowed her head and started to eat her meal again in silence. Red reached out, placing one hand on your shoulder as he did so. "Kid, I've 'eard that many o'ye kind are beyond carin' about the live o'others that they touch, as th'lives o'others are nothin' in comparison t'the time they'll live fer. I'm proud o'ye f'bein' man enough t'do th'right thing."
"What did you give them?" Anne asked in hushed tones as she looked up at you.
"I... I shall tell you later, Anne."
You looked down at the meal before you, feeling as if you had lost your appetite now. It hadn't felt so bad when you had made the deal with them, yet know you had to think about it, now you had to put it into words it wasn't as easy as you'd thought it would be to talk about it.
You sat through the rest of the meal in silence, doing your best not to meet Anne's gaze as she glanced your way occasionally, concern written across her features. When you had finished the meal you said your goodbyes to Red and his wife, saying you would visit when able.
With your goodbyes said and Anne in tow, you turned your back on the pub as you started on your way towards the Technomancers guild. The journey started in silence, with you wanting to ask Anne about her name, how she had come to be named Anxiety. You couldn't bring yourself to. It was her voice however, that snapped you from your reverie.
"What did you give them?"
"I told them everything I invented beneath their roof would be theirs, in return for your assured safety."
"I don't see what is so signifigant about that."
You laughed, shaking your head as you did so. She didn't see the signifigance of it, and you couldn't just leave her blissfully ignorant. She needed to understand the true nature of what you had done, to realise just what you intended to do.
"Think about it. I have seen the progress and the downfall of technology and tactics over the centuries, I have seen the rise and fall of nations. I have seen the progression of weapons from bow to firearm. I have never participated directly in such progress myself, I have always helped direct people to prosperity, not assisted in arming them with things to destroy themselves with."
You gazed at the river, wistfully wishing that you could dive into it, drift out to sea and never again see these shores.
"I plan to design weapons and armour, I will be doing that what I detest most. Providing people with the means to destroy each other more effectively. I need to design these things incase my only option is to use force with the Enlightened, to make them aware that it is more mutually beneficial for them to leave you be, than have me storm whatever hole they hide in and remove chunks from them on a daily basis."
Anne stood before you, arms outstretched as she glared at you sternly. Your expression of regret, of disgust and sorrow however had this stern look soften as she stepped toward you, raising one hand to brush it against your cheek. "Oh god... You're not lying, you compromised yourself for the sole sake of making things right."
"Could you help take my mind off this and tell me how you came to be given the name you bear?" You asked as you started to lead the way once more, while Anne sighed ever so slightly.
"My name was given to me by brother Pride, the current leader of the Enlightened. We are all named after aspects of the mind, emotion, thought and feeling. It is reflective of our philosophy that we are all part of a single body, that together we make an entire entity. They are just that though, names. They do not represent rank or ability in any manner, they are merely to promote a sense of unity."
You could that she was feeling isolated, vulnerable and alone.
She was no longer part of that body and she desperately wished she could simply return, as if nothing had ever happened. You felt pity, as she was likely willingly blind to what they were, knowing that she would live forever in return for her devotion.
You crossed the bridge in silence, travelling onward as you kept an eye out for machine men, incase they had as you suspected, some means to detect the Enlightened and as such would pose a threat to Anne. As the guild halls for the Clockworkers and Technomancers loomed ahead you swallowed nervously.
This was it then, this was where you were about to give yourself to them.
You were uncertain if you should be honest with them about Anne's nature or not, and for that matter, you were uncertain about exactly what you were going to start with when it came to designing things. How exactly were you going to handle all this?