I don't even know how to formulate my thoughts right now, even after calming down from last night.
I don't even know how to explain the situation that caused me to be this angry.
*breaths out calmly*
So last night, we were supposed to go over to my mother-in-law's place to eat dinner.
However, we had just eaten, so I wasn't hungry at all, and I didn't want to go there.
So we're sitting in the car, in the driveway of her mother's place, and I am trying to explain that I really don't want to be there, that I really just want to be alone.
She gets on me for it, saying that I should have said that earlier, so we wouldn't have gone.
I try pointing out that she wanted to be there, but I didn't, so if we never went at all, that would be the same problem as this, only I still wouldn't be alone, since she'd still be with me, just at home with even fewer things to do.
This continues, with me trying to explain that I want to be alone, while she keeps suggesting that either we both go in to her mother's, or we both go home, which is completely ignoring what I'm trying to say.
I suggest that she go in, without me, and I go home and rest. We both would have a phone, she can call me when she's done. It is perfectly freaking normal for people to do things apart from each other. The councilor even stated that she needs to stop acting like she's attached to me, and realize she can do things without me.
Well, she doesn't like that idea, and calls me totally unreliable, and how horrible I am to change things at the last minute.
I told her that even if I had stated it earlier, it still wouldn't be helping me at all, for reasons I just explained.
More arguing. Eventually, I tell her to go in on her own. The reason? She is not ok with me driving home and coming back later. She is ok with me sitting in the car in the cold, by myself, accomplishing the exact same thing as going home, only with not being able to lay down and rest.
It only got worse when we got back home.
Because now she's trying to make a "compromise" by having us go over there less.
Which isn't a compromise at all because as I had pointed out three fucking times earlier, I'm still not getting any time to myself because now we're still at home, where I can't even relax in the living room because every 5 minutes, she calls me in there to argue with me about whatever the fuck it is she's upset about, which would probably be about us always being at home if I had agreed to that.
If she wants to go over to her mother's, she has to drag me along. If I don't want to go, she has to stay at home with me. She refuses to attempt to do anything on her own, and she's acting like this suggestion is coming to an "agreement", when it's ignoring every single god damn thing that I have said. I am so tired of being ignored, and treated like I'm the bad guy when I just want to be alone.