I hear you, man. Too often I'm too tired to say anything when I see people being dickheads. And I'm trapped between the realization that my failure to object contributes to the problem, and the knowledge that I can't care about everything, and there's a finite amount of shit I can motivate myself to speak up about in a day. So my options wind up being "Keep quiet and let things fester" and "Say something, but nothing meaningful or helpful, making myself just another dickhead contributing to the fight".
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It's been going through my head too. Not quite 'build a bunker and tell everyone to fuck off" but just heading out into the wilderness, probably to die at some point. I'm not suicidal but I'm increasingly looking around at my countrymen going ".....You're making this a world I don't want to live in." And I don't mean in the sarcastic meme. I mean I literally don't want to partake in a society that's got its head this far up its ass, and has this much impact on the world around it.
And it's not just the guns. It's the last 14 years of this country's mindset that I just can't take anymore. Everyone, even people trying to stay on the sidelines, are getting so wound up they want to snap too. No, it's probably not unique in history of American life experience. I'm sure living through the Civil War was like 8x as fucked. But for MY personal experience, shit is at an all time low for my country and I'm sick of the fighting, the continued upping of the political ante by common people who have lost sight of what's rational or appropriate. And although it's the cowards way out, the idea of of packing as much survival gear as I can and heading North, and not having to put up with the ever present cyclical madness of American society is seeming increasingly appealing. I used to think "Shit's bad but living in the woods like a trapper? Can't see it." Now, yeah, I get it. I really do. Just take yourself out of the scene entirely, to where you can't even hear the stupid shit your own people are saying and doing.
In the end this is all gutless whining, because I don't honestly hate my country enough to pack it all up and go somewhere else. But goddamnit, I used to be the person that was like "Hey, deep down inside we're all still the same people, essentially value the same stuff...." I can't even say that with a straight face anymore. Because some Americans have just gone off the fucking deep end completely, and I swear they'd let it all burn as long as they were the ones sitting on top of the pile of bodies.
In other news, Omaha Nebraska, about 40 minutes from me, has earned the dubious honor of being the first and only city where a cameraman for COPS has been shot and killed. Yeah, that's right. COPS has been going on for how long, and no cameraman was shot, let alone killed? It didn't happen in LA. Didn't happen in New York. Didn't happen in Chicago, Atlanta, Dallas, Denver or any place like that. No, Omaha Nebraska. He died in the hospital today.
WOOO NEBRASKA #1 WOOO. Between that and the Bullets and Burgers
fucking stupidity, it's been quite a day for shootings.