whilst we're on the subject of LGBT, last night, when I'd reached the point of being so tired I was being irrational, I accidentally convinced myself I was gay.
I think I kind of know what you're talking about. DOubting your own sanity? Went a little something like:
"Woah, I almost forgot [embarassing event here] happened. Almost like I managed to make myself forget. Like that could work with anything. Like right now if I'm mentally retarded and in denial. Or maybe I'm secretly gay? How would I know... I could be so far in denial, even I don't know it. And then this self doubt, is that a sign for or against? I guess that I question it kind of invalidates that, but what if I only thought of it in the first place so that I could dismiss it with that logic and be able to better deceive myself. How do I decide!?". And then spend about a week worrying about it before forgetting that it ever happened.
I've kinda been in a self-doubting stage recently. I suspect it's entirely possible that I am, but have a stronger attraction toward women. Or perhaps I'm less bisexual and more biromantic, because while the thought of sex with another male kinda weirds me out, the thought of cuddling and other romantic type stuff doesn't.
Or maybe my libido has taken over all of my brain meats to scream at me "YOU NEED TO LOSE THAT FUCKING VIRGINITY" so I contemplate any sort of relationship.
or maybe it's because it's been over a year since I had affectionate contact with anyone
Hi.
I'm heterosexual, through and through. I've also had doubts before about my sexuality, but it came down to this for me, "When I'm sexually interested, do I think about boys or girls?" The answer was girls, so I just trusted that. I haven't been in any sort of physical relationship in over two years now, so I can understand how you feel there. It's not fun. I miss cuddles.
I'd go so far as to say I'd cuddle with a guy if he was... Suitably my type, but for a guy, that's an exceptionally narrow, tricky range. And there wouldn't be anything beyond cuddles. As now several have told me, sexuality is a sliding scale. The kinsey scale shows it pretty well actually. Most of all, don't worry about labeling yourself.