I thought my be I'd be able to get some Shit done today, maybe force myself to start my NaNoWriMo story so people would stop bugging the shit out of me about that, and then my parents asked me if I would like to spend the weekend up to the camp that we've been jumping through hoops to blow all our money on instead of fixing my fucking room. Naturally, I said no, because there's stuff I wanted to do and it's freezing outside. She then threw a fit and told me that I was going to have to go up anyway, because everyone else would be going in the morning and god forbid I be out of her sight for an entire day and a half.
Kind of ironic, considering my parents never let my brother go to any of the school dances or anything unless they have like a week's notice, but yelled at me to "Suck it up and stop it with the attitude" when I say anything to object to it. I practically had her cornered and pointed out her incredibly obvious hypocrisy and inconsiderate actions, and she just basically told me "Shut up and deal with it, I can do whatever I want because I'm a parent".
The worst part of it is that my brother is up here to go hunting, but I'm probably not going to be able to go for a walk or anything else that I would like to do, again, because God forbid her 16 year old son be out of her sight for a brief amount of time.
In other words, the camping trip is going to be like all our other camping trips, which are exactly like normal days at home, only worse because I can barely bring anything with me. I get to sit by myself and play video games and do nothing because I'm not allowed to be anothing except an automaton, while my twin brother is allowed to do whatever the fuck he wants and be as adventurous as he wants. The only hobby I have left that they haven't utterly ruined is guitar, and I barely even have the personal space to do that, and it's still just something my father keeps encouraging me to do so he can live vicariously through me.
Never in my life have I wanted to burn someone alive so much as I do now. What the fuck do I do to get my family to start respecting the fact that I am a fucking human?