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[The Merchant Of Menace]

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[Aklyon]

Does it also depend on monitor size?

[The Merchant Of Menace]

It does not, Xenforo is not that advanced yet.

[bukitodinos]

Spoiler:  Whoever does this, BURN IN A FIRE(Big image) (click to show/hide)

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[Lagslayer]

Spoiler:  Whoever does this, BURN IN A FIRE(Big image) (click to show/hide)

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I assume you mean ironically, because it is a life-size image of that-which-shall-not-be-named, and not because it's black paint on a white wall.

Would be funny to watch a believer's reaction when they stumble upon it in the middle of the night.

[GalenEvil]

Yeah, putting something up (the thing on the left side wall with the weird pattern) definitely deserves fiery death

[Frumple]

Spoiler:  Whoever does this, BURN IN A FIRE(Big image) (click to show/hide)

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I assume you mean ironically, because it is a life-size image of that-which-shall-not-be-named, and not because it's black paint on a white wall.

Would be funny to watch a believer's reaction when they stumble upon it in the middle of the night.

S'not actually paint -- you can see the shadow it's giving off. If I had to guess, I'd say black paper, maybe taped to the wall.

Which makes it all the better, because you could take it down, fold it up, and use it somewhere else

Wall quilt thing's a'ight. Good for reducing echo or something along those lines, iirc.

[Hanslanda]

[Rant=long]

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It is a little sad that I could easily get prescriptions for abusable substances that I could proceed to do on Drug Court. I choose not to, because I am better than that, but I could. And people do. The program thinks they're helping people, which they do, help a few of them, but they're just making the smart ones like me even smarter and sneakier.
When I get off, I'm just going to be twice as careful, and three times as bad on the things I took. It scares me a little that I may die after getting off DC because I'm used to drinking hideous amounts of alcohol to get drunk, and using insane amounts to get high. But I'm not done yet, and I am giving them a fair chance to convince me to quit. Their arguments have been... Insufficient so far.
'It's illegal!' So is speeding, drinking underage, and child abuse. People still do those, and my habit doesn't involve hurting others. Illegality is not a good enough reason for me.
'You'll feel better when you're sober.' Nope, I'm sober, and I feel way worse. I'm angry at everything all the time, I hate talking to people now, and my sleep is sporadic and filled with vivid nightmares. None of these things were the case when I was using.
'If you're sober, you can do anything you want with your life!' ... I. Want. To. Not. Be. Sober. That is what I want in life. I am a true addict. I have no other motivation, no ulterior motives, no wants but one. I want to get fucking stoned goddamn it.
Anyways. Just wanted to get this all off my chest.

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I imagine people get tired of hearing me talk about that same subject, so I spoiler'd it for their convienence.

[Bdthemag]

[Rant=long]

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It is a little sad that I could easily get prescriptions for abusable substances that I could proceed to do on Drug Court. I choose not to, because I am better than that, but I could. And people do. The program thinks they're helping people, which they do, help a few of them, but they're just making the smart ones like me even smarter and sneakier.
When I get off, I'm just going to be twice as careful, and three times as bad on the things I took. It scares me a little that I may die after getting off DC because I'm used to drinking hideous amounts of alcohol to get drunk, and using insane amounts to get high. But I'm not done yet, and I am giving them a fair chance to convince me to quit. Their arguments have been... Insufficient so far.
'It's illegal!' So is speeding, drinking underage, and child abuse. People still do those, and my habit doesn't involve hurting others. Illegality is not a good enough reason for me.
'You'll feel better when you're sober.' Nope, I'm sober, and I feel way worse. I'm angry at everything all the time, I hate talking to people now, and my sleep is sporadic and filled with vivid nightmares. None of these things were the case when I was using.
'If you're sober, you can do anything you want with your life!' ... I. Want. To. Not. Be. Sober. That is what I want in life. I am a true addict. I have no other motivation, no ulterior motives, no wants but one. I want to get fucking stoned goddamn it.
Anyways. Just wanted to get this all off my chest.

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I imagine people get tired of hearing me talk about that same subject, so I spoiler'd it for their convienence.

I understand where you're coming from, but the way I see it if someone is feeling like shit sober that's usually because they have underlying problems that can't be easily resolved when you're not sober. No offense towards you of course.

[Hanslanda]

I get what you're saying. And don't worry too much about offending me, I understand most people have a vastly different opinion than me on this, and I attempt to understand it where ever possible.

And I can't even begin to describe my underlying issues. I don't have the words to explain myself. *Sigh*

[Euld]

I think I understand what you mean :/  I for one, welcome anything you want to say about your underlying issues.  I have no idea if we'd be able to help, but it's better than nothing :X

[scriver]

You'd probably be better off in some kind of therapy, Hans, if you can afford it.

[Scelly9]

You'd probably be better off in some kind of therapy, Hans, if you can afford it.

I do believe that he has previously talked about therapist dipshits that lie about their privacy policies.

[MetalSlimeHunt]

You'd probably be better off in some kind of therapy, Hans, if you can afford it.

I do believe that he has previously talked about therapist dipshits that lie about their privacy policies.

To be fair, those were drug court-shrill therapists. An independent one could theoretically be better, but I would still exercise caution.

[Hanslanda]

You'd probably be better off in some kind of therapy, Hans, if you can afford it.

I do believe that he has previously talked about therapist dipshits that lie about their privacy policies.

To be fair, those were drug court-shrill therapists. An independent one could theoretically be better, but I would still exercise caution.

Yeah, the DC Counselor lies to me, and with my trust issues, this put her out of the loop quite immediately, seeing as how an ill-considered word could land me four months in prison and a restart on my one and a half year program. I'm sure some therapy would help, but I have no insurance, and this is going to be the case for the immediate future. I can't afford it, and my job doesn't offer it yet, plus I'd have to find a therapist at least partially covered by insurance, after I get insurance.


As for issues, I'll spoiler it, to make me feel like I has bit of privacy, and so anyone can skip it if they prefer.

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First of all, I've got some pretty serious trust issues, especially in regards to females of my age, because of a slew of relationships from 15-19 that all ended the same way: Me getting betrayed. First, I was used as a fall-back guy like a dozen times, then used in a worse way once, so I bailed. Then, my 'best friend' decided she wanted to sleep with me. She changed her mind after a couple weeks of this, then said 'let's just be friends'. She immediately proceeded to stop being my friend at all. -.- Then, I dated one of the people I worked with, a bartender. She got upset with my personal choices, and dumped me. This hurt, but was understandable. Then, she took me back, but was trying to change me, and wanted me to keep it all a secret from my boss when we screwed at my boss's house, on her hideabed, at the urging of my boss. Ooookay then. So, finally we break up fully, and she gets fired because of the way 'I' was behaving. (You know, being sad because I got dumped. A fairly normal reaction, I think) She gets fired, and has to move, seperating her kids from their father. This makes me feel like a fucking prick. :/ Later, I learn from various sources that the whole time this had been happening, she'd been sleeping with at least two other guys.
This marks the point at which I began actively avoiding and sabotaging any advances from women, for their sake, and for mine.
I've got pretty typical depression/self-esteem issues, and I've got them fully under control, so we won't get into that much.
I've obviously got a substance abuse problem.
I've got trust issues deeper than the Grand Canyon. I don't trust people easily. People often trust me, and think I'm great friends with them, but the fact of the matter is that I have so many people trust me and think I'm their friend, I really don't have but one or two people I trust and consider friends. Still, I don't want to let people down, even when they let me down most of the time, so I try real hard to maintain this image of 'a great friend'. This causes me a good deal of stress.
I'm sure there is more I could think of, but for now, this is enough I think.