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[Hyndis]

That wiki article was pretty much on the money of my symptoms.

The origins though, I believe, is the trauma I've experienced through my, although short, life. What's more, I bottle most things up, only letting them out in times of great depression. Letting out enough emotion to equalize the pressure slightly, so to speak.
After mulling over it slightly, I've theorized I've just bottled so much up that it's making existential dread.

Still, I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one out there that has felt like this.

Don't bottle things up, that just eats you up from the inside.

You always need to be able to vent. Doesn't even matter if anyone is listening, just vent!

I have a thread I created on another forum specifically for me to vent in. I don't care if I get any responses to it, heckling, argument, or whatever. Thats my little corner of the internet, and I'm gonna vent my frustrations in there, damnit. 

Its healthy.

Now of course anything taken to an extreme is bad. Just process things a bit, sort them out in your head, then vent. Don't go on long angry tirades or go berserk and topple masterwork statues or anything like that, but you have emotions. Acknowledge them, express them. Don't even be afraid to cry either. Its all good for you.

Again, too much of anything is bad. Even doing any of this stuff is bad when taken to the extreme. Everything is best in moderation.

[Dwarven WMD]

Everything is pointless. Everything!   

Even the pyramids will eventually turn to dust and be gone. Completely gone. The sun itself will burn out after first vaporizing the inner planets. In the end it does not matter. Whatever we do does not matter in the end.

And I take comfort in it.

You only got one shot at things. Maybe 80-100 years or something, depending on health and genetics, and quite a bit of luck. Make the best of it. Live a good, happy life. Be honest and productive, try to make your tiny little corner of the universe a bit better, and thats all you can possibly hope for.

Don't try to take on the entire universe. You will lose, and you will make no difference. Do the little things. They count, and they add up. Just be a good person, live honest, and live a happy life and thats quite enough meaning in life for me.

As morbid as that sounds, that actually makes sense. If I look over these little episodes of mine, I've noticed I've always tried to comprehend what I think about and I hurt myself doing it. I guess I just try to comprehend it because I love to learn. As for the fears, they are often associated with death, and even though I know my time comes at some point, I do love life, and worrying about it is probably coupling with the bottling.

[Hyndis]

Everything is pointless. Everything!   

Even the pyramids will eventually turn to dust and be gone. Completely gone. The sun itself will burn out after first vaporizing the inner planets. In the end it does not matter. Whatever we do does not matter in the end.

And I take comfort in it.

You only got one shot at things. Maybe 80-100 years or something, depending on health and genetics, and quite a bit of luck. Make the best of it. Live a good, happy life. Be honest and productive, try to make your tiny little corner of the universe a bit better, and thats all you can possibly hope for.

Don't try to take on the entire universe. You will lose, and you will make no difference. Do the little things. They count, and they add up. Just be a good person, live honest, and live a happy life and thats quite enough meaning in life for me.

As morbid as that sounds, that actually makes sense. If I look over these little episodes of mine, I've noticed I've always tried to comprehend what I think about and I hurt myself doing it. I guess I just try to comprehend it because I love to learn. As for the fears, they are often associated with death, and even though I know my time comes at some point, I do love life, and worrying about it is probably coupling with the bottling.

Yeah, its a little morbid, but at least its honest. I prefer brutal honesty. No point in sugar coating things.

Also we will all experience death in time. You will, I will, even Toady One will.  D:

But thats in time. Its not now. Now I have other things to do first. I'm personally quite curious at the whole experience of death and the process of death, but I don't want to rush things.

Gotta get all of my shopping done here first before I move on, eh? 

[Dwarf]

Even if it's nihilistic - there's no chance in hell one human can make a difference on a grand scale. One single human being is uttely powerless and unimportant.

I mights as well throw in my portion of Personal Problems here:
Oh god, I should stop with nihilism and black metal.
It removed the point in life for me, I was extremely depressive a few days ago, actually considered wiping myself form this world. Fuck, I don't even know why.
Probably, there is a relation to the discovery that the Current One-Sided Love Of My Life is a bitch who gave a friend of mine a hand-job, altough I keep telling to myself that I don't care.

[Hungry]

You all sound like average human beings to me...miserably pathetic normal humans.
Do something 'productive' that makes you 'happy' and you'll all be fine.
Death is a normal acceptable thing, living with it is the only trouble that comes from it.
Other than being a lone being your part of the rest of us humans...

Ect.

[Nivim]

Spoiler: on bottling up (click to show/hide)

Don't bottle things up, that just eats you up from the inside.

You always need to be able to vent. Doesn't even matter if anyone is listening, just vent!

I have a thread I created on another forum specifically for me to vent in. I don't care if I get any responses to it, heckling, argument, or whatever. Thats my little corner of the internet, and I'm gonna vent my frustrations in there, damnit. 

Its healthy.

Now of course anything taken to an extreme is bad. Just process things a bit, sort them out in your head, then vent. Don't go on long angry tirades or go berserk and topple masterwork statues or anything like that, but you have emotions. Acknowledge them, express them. Don't even be afraid to cry either. Its all good for you.

I don't know why people keep saying this, since it's so very wrong. Releasing emotions like that just wastes energy you could use for something else, it's like pouring a perfectly good vial of acid onto the ground. Or worse, pouring said acid onto another person. It's a nasty thing to do when the emotion is a nasty thing, especially when you can simply collect and cancel whatever it is; clean up your own mess. Hate, anger, disgust, cynicism, despair, pain, and fear; all can be controlled, all inverted, all made to work and to drive one's self.

[Dwarf]

You might have a point there.
But releasing your emotions mustn't necessarily be on other people - I think that should be avoided, unless they're trained personnel.

[Acanthus117]

I have this very same problem. at the young age of 15, I suffer insomnia. I spend all my nights contemplating life and death. I used to keep this all inside, and it did eat me. Then, I started to talk with people. My parents, close friends, my girlfriend, and I felt much better when I realized that I wasn't alone. As Hyndis said, I had to deal with it. What worked, for me at least, was simply accepting that one day, I will die. After that, nothing is certain. No man has indisputably ever come back from the dead, and there's no certainty that there is anything after death. But, just because I accept that I will die, I will not go quietly. As Dylan Thomas put into verse:

Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

[Hyndis]

Probably, there is a relation to the discovery that the Current One-Sided Love Of My Life is a bitch who gave a friend of mine a hand-job, altough I keep telling to myself that I don't care.

Dump her. Forget about her. Move on. Seriously.

She will only keep on twisting the knife. Those people get off on hurting others. She knows what she's doing, and she enjoys it.

[Dwarven WMD]

So, what want to know now is there any... I don't want to say "cure", but is there anyway that I can stop these existential crises?

[Maggarg - Eater of chicke]

I hang on in silent desperation.
It's the English way.

[winner]

Spoiler: on bottling up (click to show/hide)

Don't bottle things up, that just eats you up from the inside.

You always need to be able to vent. Doesn't even matter if anyone is listening, just vent!

I have a thread I created on another forum specifically for me to vent in. I don't care if I get any responses to it, heckling, argument, or whatever. Thats my little corner of the internet, and I'm gonna vent my frustrations in there, damnit. 

Its healthy.

Now of course anything taken to an extreme is bad. Just process things a bit, sort them out in your head, then vent. Don't go on long angry tirades or go berserk and topple masterwork statues or anything like that, but you have emotions. Acknowledge them, express them. Don't even be afraid to cry either. Its all good for you.

I don't know why people keep saying this, since it's so very wrong. Releasing emotions like that just wastes energy you could use for something else, it's like pouring a perfectly good vial of acid onto the ground. Or worse, pouring said acid onto another person. It's a nasty thing to do when the emotion is a nasty thing, especially when you can simply collect and cancel whatever it is; clean up your own mess. Hate, anger, disgust, cynicism, despair, pain, and fear; all can be controlled, all inverted, all made to work and to drive one's self.

Sharing pain with someone makes them happier.

[Dakk]

So, what want to know now is there any... I don't want to say "cure", but is there anyway that I can stop these existential crises?

Nihilism

Don't blame me if you become depressive and eventualy kill yourself, but its better then following Ayn Rand's bullcrap, though.

[Jude]

Sounds like obsessive-compulsive disorder to me (specifically the obsessive part). See a psychologist! They have all kinds of neat tricks up their sleeves

[Haspen]

Had same problem once. When I was 14, my beloved grandma died. I cried a lot. From one of the best guys in the school, my grades gradually plummeted down. My parents were uncaring so I had to bottle it up.

And release in controlled manner. Writing diary and describing my experiences. Pondering about life and death and even more of this. Honestly, I kept thinking until I felt I was done.

It costed me a bit of my sanity and emotions, as I had no help in other people, but now I feel okay.

On the other, brighter side: Hey! You keep thinking about life and death! How many kids think about life and death instead of pocket money, hamburgers and that cute someone from their class? You are special, and should feel being 'special' in positive way

Also: start working. Working hard for money or something. The more you and your mind will be busy with some work, the less time you will spend thinking.