Low expectations this year. Here's my plan:
I have none. I'm just gonna wing it from now on until the world fucking ends; and by then, I'll be waiting for it with some booze, and an "End of the World" party (anybody is invited to it; but it would be a modest one, nothing too wild. Basically it would be like the forums, except around a fire, and much BS-ing about random things, and how life was and such.), with the obligatory praying when the finale comes.
I guess the only thing I have intention of doing for the year is maybe learn a new language. Japanese at least. It seems interesting enough, and I'd also like to understand those characters better so I can read it. Plus, I'd like to learn it in case I get angry, I can mutter something under my breath in another language.
And my new annual mantra (since last(this) year):
"I reject your reality, and substitute my own. I know what the fuck I am doing. Just who the hell do you think I am?"
Worked before without a hitch, guaranteed to work again. And it's a good confidence booster to say out loud. I developed it after having the worst year of my life (thus far).
Explanation:
Anytime I made claims of "This is MY year" or "The year of (My family)" and made claims to get a date and such. Let's just say, Karma teamed up with Murphy's Law; resulting in being like The Truman Show mixed with having MTV as the sponsor for the year.
My best example would have to be 2008, where I did just that. Oh man, the list. Makes me laugh nowadays considering the ridiculous lengths things went. How I'm still sane enough to be coherent, and even look back and laugh at it,considering how horrible it was, is a miracle in itself.
*My job at the time was getting hostile towards me (I was getting suspicious that they were making plans to fire me, instead of just letting me go. My manager was a total dick.), and some of my co-workers were getting sick of my working there (despite being the only runner, that's doing the work of 3 people for 10 hours a work day).
*I had to work on my birthday because I forgot to make note of it, and couldn't make any last-minute adjustments (my manager's attitude wasn't any better).
*I got into a car accident that very same day with my new car a month after getting it to replace my last one. Fortunately, the damage was minimal; but the person I crashed into tried to take advantage of "Blame the youth"; whereas my dodging skid marks told otherwise. Thank God the police were on my side. Anyone outside the family (including co-workers) couldn't give a shit.
*Getting a drink after work was getting lame and repetitive (alcohol was getting boring, believe it or not). Fortunately, it wasn't too much of a problem at my workplace.
*However, my complaints of a lack of help, and being an experienced worker being replaced by 2 inexperienced socialite lazy girls; and practically working extra time on St. Patricks Day for them (purely against my will), when I had a class on that very day as well (which I missed; and there was an interesting topic being discussed too), was enough to get me fired from my job.
*The rest of the year turned up no results in finding a job; and this was since March. My finances plummeted into being broke on Christmas. Beginning the new year with nothing.
*My mind wasn't taking much of the stress too well, and I nearly had a breakdown halfway through the year; and my car was falling apart.
*Despite not having a job, I was still a financial crutch; so I was losing money fast.
*Near the end of the year, some trolls hacked into a social network account I had, and all other accounts associated with it, and attacked me and my family. But fortunately, I prepared for any such attack, and did a major counter-attack when I learned the source, and revealed most of them as a bunch of sociopathic little kids that picked the wrong target. No attacks happened ever since; and it could've been much worse. All accounts of my previous identedy I had to remove, and thoroughly clear out.
*Had to say goodbye to my prior naive, happy-go-lucky self, and work on recovering another lost personality of mine. The kind of person that didn't give a crap about anything. Take on a life of solitude, and throw away ambition. No longer expect good to happen, forced or not. Always prepare for the worst, and use it to my advantage.
Of course: That's only portions of the year. There'd me more to list, but I decided to block them out, or I forgot about them.
I apologize if I depressed anybody with that, but I figure I might as well explain why I no longer have faith in any new year any more. Although I appear to have given up on life; I've only just recovered my ambition to take full control over it.
So yeah, my view on the new year: "Bah, screw it. Let's see what happens, and work with what we've got." "Who needs plans?"
EDIT:
I will try to finish Armok's Gauntlet, and maybe take on another megaproject later.
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