After watching Avatar, I got a lecture again about my position in life; and as usual, all my defenses stating I understand, I'm aware, etc. of where I am in life, my age, and the state of the world and such, apparently don't seem to work.
Ugh. Thank God I'm used to being muted. It just makes it easier for me to be stealthy I guess. At least I learned how to be a non-verbal communicator thanks to not being heard by people, regardless the volume of my voice, or the amount of thought put into my speaking.
I guess all I can say is; once I eventually snap, my actions will definitely speak louder than any words. One dominant one is the most ironic, yet most potent: ignorance. Nobody IRL would listen to me, I am deaf to them. I'll handle the consequences myself. At least I CAN take responsibility for my actions, regardless the crap situations I'm cornered into 99.99% of the time; unlike alot of the people I'm stuck dealing with that usually don't, and blame me for their problems.
Why can't anyone understand Gestalts these days? There's more to things than the collection of what you see. Or as it's better known: "The whole is greater than the sum of it's parts.".
I mean, what everybody sees in me is a lazy person that spends a majority of his life on his computer, and not doing anything with his life, and has no intention to move forward and grow up (despite my muted statements stating otherwise). Yeah, that's like 0.01% of what I'm actually going through on a daily basis. :facepalm:
But yeah, like I said, I remain ignored by people IRL, I'll ignore them. I have a reactive personality; I behave just how someone treats me. Instead of "Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you.", I operate more along the line of "Do unto others AS they do unto you.". I'm the kind of person that takes someone's karma, and makes it bite them in the ass. I've been "The Nice Guy" for too damn long in my life, and I'm thoroughly sick of it. I have yet to get my lifetime reward for my effort. Where's my prize God? If a warm fuzzy feeling is all I get, then I feel gypped.
I just ranted about how i always talk to myself.
To myself.
I do the same sometimes. Usually to break the 4th wall as well with life. If Heaven and Hell and the government are watching me; let's give them a show.
Movie was good, but that talk for the n-th time on the way back pissed me off big time. I speak the same language fluently, but I am never understood. That always makes me sad. More the fact that there's no way around it; unless I can telepathically transfer memories and whatnot; but that's merely fantasy.
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Bleh, movie popcorn is taking effect now. Stomach isn't too pleased with me, and I only ate half a large bag.
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