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[Great Order]

Almost no sleep and a panic attack to make sure I'm awake.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

I'm feeling stuck at this point. I'm on my sixth year (out of four) of student loans. If I leave there's very good odds I won't be able to come back. At the same time I can't fucking function with this anxiety. It's affecting my sleep, diet and uni work, on top of making me feel miserable and dissociated. I had another panic attack today, in the middle of my first lecture of this semester.

I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do. Just give up on higher education or something?

[nenjin]

Sometimes the only way out is through. You can't learn to manage anxiety and stress unless you're challenged to either.

[Great Order]

Yeah, unfortunately I don't think that's how GAD works. It's just that my uni work's a source of additional stress and it's become the focus, I'm a pretty anxious person in general.

What I really need is a therapist. And medication that doesn't make me so emotionally numb it's like being depressed all over again.

[Frumple]

Uh, yeah, if you're dealing with clinical anxiety (or phobias, or a pile of other things), "only way out is through" is a good way to make things pretty drastically worse. Not something you want to mess with considering stress like that, especially over a longer period, can literally kill your ass.

You can't learn to manage anxiety or stress when you're in the middle of a panic attack or major anxiety flareup. Just the flat goddamn physiology involved makes that borderline impossible and trying is generally actively detrimental to dealing constructively with the the condition. It takes medication and/or dedicated training to be able to handle that kind of thing if you're one of the folks that has a brain that's decided to fuck you up on the subject. Throwing yourself at the wall mostly just cracks your skull open.

[Great Order]

Ugh, no caffeine for me. I'm at the point in anxiety where it just makes everything worse.

[Travis Bickle 2]

I am sad because I will never fall in love.

[Magmacube_tr]

I am sad because I will never fall in love.

#mood #relatable #foreveralone

[JoshuaFH]

Spoiler: Irrational Doomer Behavior (click to show/hide)

It's hard to not think about politics when it increasingly feels like the bubble of normalcy I live in is, any day now, going to pop and I'm going to be instantly thrust into a Mad Max-style dystopia from whence I'll never escape. I've held the longtime belief that the Earth will only survive the rapaciousness of humans by the miracle of a mass culling that wipes most of us out while leaving nature intact. I can't help but feel though, that that culling is coming sooner than expected, and I'm not going to be in the minority that survives it.

[martinuzz]

I am sad because I will never fall in love.

You don't need to be in love to love and be loved

[wobbly]

I am sad because I will never fall in love.

Meh, love is terrible and makes people do terrible things. Embrace the dark side of the force, and let your hate take you over.

... I don't have a proper answer to your post, don't know your situation. but from my own life love was 5% ecstasy and 95% a pain in the butt. And that was over multiple occasions. Its not a good thing, but if you "actually" aren't going to find true love, a bunch of other people didn't either.

It's a rotten song, but its also good. Shows how common, what you are feeling is. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IsZyxJPMoOc

[McTraveller]

Why does the new Jurrasic Park movie look so bad visually and thematically?

The effects of the original movie still hold up fantastically and way better than this new CGI nonsense.  The story also appears.... pandering? I dunno what to call it.

[Lord Shonus]

In terms of plot, the original Jurassic Park was a direct adaptation of a novel by a crazy but very talented man. Toning down some of his crazy is all that was needed to let his good ideas shine (although making Hammond a nice guy was probably a mistake). The second movie was very loosely based on a novel by the same guy that was lower quality because it was written exclusively to give material for a sequel, but still had some of his good ideas.


Every movie since has been based on nothing but whatever the writer they happen to hire puts out, and most Hollywood writers don't go for the same sort of thing Crichton did and are trying to fake it because they're actively trying to live up to the older films.

[Il Palazzo]

I don't remember there being any crazy in the original novel. What do you mean?

[Lord Shonus]

Crichton had some very bizarre views on science - they sort of make it into the movie in Malcolm's "you were so focused on if you could you didn't wonder if you should" speech, but there was a fair bit more in there.

   "But scientific power is like inherited wealth: attained without discipline. You read what others have done, and you take the next step. You can do it very young. You can make progress very fast. There is no discipline lasting many decades. There is no mastery: old scientists are ignored. There is no humility before nature. There is only a get-rich-quick, make-a-name-for-yourself-fast philosophy. Cheat, lie, falsify-it doesn't matter. Not to you, or to your colleagues. No one will criticize you. No one has any standards. They are all trying to do the same thing: to do something big, and do it fast.

    "And because you can stand on the shoulders of giants, you can accomplish something quickly. You don't even know exactly what you have done, but already you have reported it, patented it, and sold it. And the buyer will have even less discipline than you. The buyer simply purchases the power, like any commodity. The buyer doesn't even conceive that any discipline might be necessary."

    Hammond said, "Do you know what he is talking about?"

    Ellie nodded.

    "I haven't a clue," Hammond said.

    "I'll make it simple," Malcolm said. "A karate master does not kill people with his bare hands. He does not lose his temper and kill his wife. The person who kills is the person who has no discipline, no restraint, and who has purchased his power in the form of a Saturday night special. And that is the kind of power that science fosters, and permits. And that is why you think that to build a place like this is simple."

   "You know what we are really talking about here," Malcolm said. "All this attempt to control . . . We are talking about Western attitudes that are five hundred years old. They began at the time when Florence, Italy, was the most important city in the world. The basic idea of science-that there was a new way to look at reality, that it was objective, that it did not depend on your beliefs or your nationality, that it was rational-that idea was fresh and exciting back then. It offered promise and hope for the future, and it swept away the old medieval system, which was hundreds of years old. The medieval world of feudal politics and religious dogma and hateful superstitions fell before science. But, in truth, this was because the medieval world didn't really work any more. It didn't work economically, it didn't work intellectually, and it didn't fit the new world that was emerging.

    Malcolm coughed.

    "But now," he continued, "science is the belief system that is hundreds of years old. And, like the medieval system before it, science is starting not to fit the world any more. Science has attained so much power that its practical limits begin to be apparent. Largely through science, billions of us live in one small world, densely packed and intercommunicating. But science cannot help us decide what to do with that world, or how to live. Science can make a nuclear reactor, but it cannot tell us not to build it. Science can make pesticide, but cannot tell us not to use it. And our world starts to seem polluted in fundamental ways-air, and water, and land-because of ungovernable science." He sighed. "This much is obvious to everyone."

"We are witnessing the end of the scientific era. Science, like other outmoded systems, is destroying itself. As it gains in power, it proves itself incapable of handling the power. Because things are going very fast now. Fifty years ago, everyone was gaga over the atomic bomb. That was power. No one could imagine anything more. Yet, a bare decade after the bomb, we began to have genetic power. And genetic power is far more potent than atomic power. And it will be in everyone's hands. It will be in kits for backyard gardeners. Experiments for schoolchildren. Cheap labs for terrorists and dictators, And that will force everyone to ask the same question-What should I do with my power?-which is the very question science says it cannot answer."

There's a fair bit more in this vein, but I don't want to drop massive quote dumps. This isn't just "Ian Malcolm the character being odd", either. Many of Crichton's works are full of stuff like this.

[McTraveller]

That's not "crazy" though - that's actual philosophy.

I mean, at least I never considered "exercising restraint" to be a crazy idea...