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I should hope not. If so my condolences. Hopefully there might be some treatment, depending upon what it actually is.
Hopefully it isn't serious. I'd prefer that to anyone dying in any way. Stranger things have happened.
Understandable. Zen. Done once; do again. My old advice is still true. You know the thread....
"I'm lucky multiple managers have said they will miss me but are glad I get an opportunity."
Remember my lesson on, letters of recommendation? Politely ask for one from these managers and if they will serve as a reference. Infiltrated; now exfiltrate, intelligently. Then integrate into new workplace. Thereby retaining pluses from old place while avoiding issues by being in new place. Always building resume, references, and professional connections. Your fear is understandable; it's cause is not controllable; your response may be. (Difficult though it may well be).
Socialization is difficult; alcohol temptations are real. Admittedly difficult, but not hopeless. Once you get stable, you might consider cautious socialization with board game nights, and related matters. Perhaps not immediate, but hope exists.
Same advice holds true; form foundation, build from there. Stability, then building, then more. Hang in there.
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In a somewhat similar vein, my assistant is moving on, and while I helped her do so, my letter of recommendation to her made it clear she would be missed here.
"Ms. [Redacted]'s open mind gladly takes instruction, and gives loyal competent work. Solution & support despite setbacks, dedication and diligence showing definitively, and much more validate my full conviction she will benefit any organization so fortunate as to have her. She repays small kindnesses tenfold and has never once so much as thought to abuse any privilege she has earned. I fully vouch for her skills, having instructed and seen them for years. I mentored her through multiple certifications [redacted]. I would work with her again and will gladly do so if the opportunity arises. Please feel free to call with any comments or questions at [redacted]. The person reading this letter should hire her, before someone else does."
Some bean counter with a spreadsheet and no brains decided to cut budget, thus driving talent to the competition....
Not sure who hurt this bean counter to make them such a moron, but one wonders if they should perhaps finish the job.
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