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[nenjin]

Yeah, my resting BP ain't great either due to stress and probably too much caffeine. I've probably got hypertension just like she does. Gotta get the nerves under control. I'd like to stay functional as close to the end as possible.

[King Zultan]

You gotta take care of yourself and take some time for yourself during these times. I've known several people who had to look after a parent and it messed them up from the stress, lack of sleep, and various other things, it took several years to recover from it.

[Magmacube_tr]

The stress of this election is getting to me. I know I have no control over what happens so I really shouldn't be too bothered. But this is my future at stake.

People my age already started commiting suicide over it, since we couldn't take it in the first turn. I will not take that path, no questions there. But the possibility of Türkiye becoming some unholy hybrid shithole between Russia, Iran and Pakistan is too overwhelming.

And my forum game is probably dead from neglect as well. I have no energy to it.

[Strif3]

And my forum game is probably dead from neglect as well. I have no energy to it.

Sounds like good way to distract yourself from all happening in your country. Since you cannot control it anyway. Besides, no matter who's in power, politicians will always fuck everyone over anyway. The balance of fuckery might be different, but somebody still suffers, always.

[King Zultan]

Given what's going on in your country have you considered the possibility of leaving?


Also I agree that running a forum game is a pretty good distraction form the horrors of the world.

[Vector]

God, I'm depressed. Sorry for the ALL CAPS but with Homestuck over I am putting on cruise control for y'all's nostalgia

[snip snip lmao]

this is my vent, I know I will be fine but jesus fucking christ fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

[MaximumZero]

That's a big list of WHAT the FUCK.

Any condolences I can offer are yours.

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I'm seriously considering inpatient mental health services. My suicidal ideation has gone through the roof, and I just got life shattering bad news. Again. I'm so tired. At this point, I have moved beyond "would welcome death," to "actively planning purchases and locations and stuff," and that's...concerning, to say the least. So, we'll see how things go over the next few days.

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My general doctor referred me to a psychiatric urgent care. I'll be going there soon.

[Vector]

Good luck, Max. I hope it helps.

[Frumple]

Echo that. Hopefully something will shake out, get better...

[Great Order]

I'm running out of time for my university applications. Not because I've been putting it off (Much, at least), moreso because my previous university spent fucking forever sending out the transcript and every fucking person who's a suitable referee has declined to reply at all, even after I gave them a few pokes. I could use a previous employer theoretically, however the last employer was a bunch of bigoted dickheads and I'm applying under my new name, and the ones before that refuse to do references. Anyone before that's too far in the past.

So I've had to contact every university to ask about joining in second year, then also ask them if they're fine with me not having a reference (Since you have to clear both with every university before applying, they can't look decide after the application's done), and a couple of the universities either don't have admissions email addresses, or have buried them somewhere irrelevant.

Fuck's sake, this whole process is a mess.

[dragdeler]

I need a solid reason, something to steer me of my course that isn't just an ex(cuse)planation.


There is too much shoulda-woulda-coulda unrealized potential, change dangling just outside of reach. Meanwhile in the real world, I'm supposed to do 3,5 ton wood containers, I get like 900kg in the week, can't order that, then 4 tons on saturday alone, oh and this small shit parc is not a priority and wood is the last fucking thing they do anyway, at the end of the day so they get to have a nice long drive and then ride home. Whats the fucking point in having this shithole open if I don't have room for most things. The people want to take out their frustration on me and I do tenfold. Last week I actually kicked somebody, still makes me giddy he so fucking deserved it, if anything I regret that one kick changed his mind allready, but what's the point. The cops were supposed to get back at me but I haven't heard anything yet. Why would I risk permanent consequences over a sysyphean task and a bunch of cockroaches who can't process a no.

Seriously give me a good reason. I'm playing responsibilty chicken with the users. I'm only staying out of spite; levels of spite I tried to unravel but that post got too long. So it's this one instead. Tell me why I should quit, presume the worst, project if you have to. RINSE THAT SHIT OUT OF MY BRAIN. I want to call my manager tomorrow and not feel like a quitter but like an adult.

[MaximumZero]

Echo that. Hopefully something will shake out, get better...

Also @Vector, but I know you don't like being quoted.

Thank you. It wasn't as high intensity as I'd hoped, but it was just the spark I needed to clear some of the panic I've been feeling over the past couple weeks. I have a lot of evaluating to do, and once I get through the next round of doctor's appointments and likely surgeries, I have a lot of changes to make in my life. Hoping that this next surgery puts me back on my feet enough to go back to work. I just don't know how that's going to go, since I haven't had an actual job since like, 2018. Disability is rough, yo.

[TD1]

Glad to hear you're feeling more yourself, MZ.

A couple of the universities either don't have admissions email addresses, or have buried them somewhere irrelevant.

If this halted any applications, I'd recommend looking for the administrative head of school and emailing them (even the academic head would probably help). If that fails because of bureaucratic stupidity, find a list of administrative staff and send emails to likely-looking folk. Thry'll soon pass the buck to where it needs to go.

Unfortunately, the only people who know how to navigate uni bureaucracies are often those within them.

[Great Order]

I've started doing that.

One unis replied saying they won't accept that, the most I can do is defer it and give them the referee later.

If it was one of the backup choices that'd be fine, but it's my second choice.

Feck.

[Criptfeind]

For some reason over the last decade I've lost the ability to write without producing an increasing number of typos and dropped words. I personally blame the rise of my use of discord and writing messages on a cellphone, but it's disturbing to me that a capability that in theory I use every day seems to be degrading.