And besides, getting it off your chest does wonders for processing through it, at least that's what I've discovered. Makes getting closure a lot simpler when you get a "nah" usually.
PPE:
It isn't confirmation until you actually hear it directly in response to an actual conversation, really. It does sound like they are in a relationship, but you won't know until you talk.
I've asked her to give me a heads up when she's not busy. Of course, she's more or less always busy, so I don't know how well that's gonna go.
I figure, we've kept in fairly close contact for some time, and this hit does mean that I'm not going to be my usual chipper and supportive self. The least I owe her is an explanation of why I'm not going to be contacting her as much as usual.
Yeah, give yourself some time to get over it if you'd want to maintain a friendship afterwards. Honestly I'm just glad to hear you're out of what sounded like a pretty abusive relationship.
That's the best part; I'm not yet, not officially. I'm trying to arrange a place for me to stay before I make the official break with my girlfriend, because I don't want to sleep on the street. So, since I'm not technically single and I have some pretty mean hangups about infidelity, I've been fighting my feelings for this other chick from the start. I also made sure not to do anything about them once it was clear I couldn't stave them off with logic and good intentions, because actually doing something about it while I'm still officially in a relationship with someone else would be wrong.
So I've basically just been sitting back, developing stronger and stronger feelings of longing, and trying to fight it all back until I could get free. She's within all rights to find someone else. Hell, a few months ago I was trying to HELP her find someone else in order to head my own feelings off at the pass. No dice.
To wrap everything up, I'm supposed to get confirmation today from my one remaining rental lead as to whether or not I got picked for the spot. I figure getting shot down again on that front would be the optimal finale for this dickens of a day.
Pandora works wonders for that.
Yeah, but it's not allowed to operate outside of US and Australia. And I'm outside of those places.