Had some microwaved instant pumpkin oatmeal this morning for breakfast, made with water instead of milk since I'm out. That's probably like the lowest common denominator kind of oatmeal available, but I enjoyed it anyway. Definitely better with milk, and who's got time to make it the slow way?
I'm also disappointed that I never got to do any dissections in biology class. That year the biology teacher (yes, there was but one in that tiny school) was going through some kind of family issues and he really stopped caring. Which was a real shame, since he was a really fun teacher during the years before.
Anyway, I've been irrationally depressed and demotivated for the past three days or so. I want to blame it on things like being creatively exhausted from NaNoWriMo, and drinking less caffeine certainly contributes, but I know the real reason is that my gaming group on Discord has become substantially less active lately and it really just kind of hit home this week. This has happened before and activity picked back up later, so I'm not too worried really, but it's a hard feeling to shake.
Just kind of cross checking the discussion in the American politics thread over the last few days, I think I'm starting to get some insight into how being so connected to people 24 hours a day can lead to depression if it's disrupted or it looks like your situation can change without your control.
Well, anyway, as I said it's happened before and recovered. It's a kind of dumb thing to be depressed over considering the rest of my life is pretty great. I think this is the third time in about as many years that I can recall a bout of depression related to this specifically, and the last two times it lasted about a week. It'll be interesting to see if it dissipates faster this time, or if I'm as incapable of learning / adapting as it feels like sometimes.
Vaguely related on the mental train jumping the rails, the decrease in activity has let me get more sleep. I'm alarmed that that has not translated to a significant improvement in cognition and memory, which I'd hoped was caused purely by chronic sleep deprivation. I'm 31. I should not be having memory problems like I do.