Heeey, relationship troubles! Fun times, man. Currently going through a rough patch myself, as my relationship with my girlfriend is effectively dead and has been for the past 2-3 years.
Not that she knows, mind you. I haven't said anything because I don't want to make the break until I know I have somewhere else to lay my head, and I don't. She owns the (studio) apartment, and I'm horrible at doing anything, let alone something as major as home-hunting. Especially now with the upheaval going on between me and the social support system and a rapidly deteriorating mental state.
I honestly don't know if I can expect her to not go cataclysmic when I make it clear that I don't want to be romantically involved with her anymore, and even if she does keep cool, I can't ask to stock around here until I get settled, because I know that I'll never meet whatever deadline I set, and in the meantime we'll still be stacked pretty much on top of each other in the apartment's singular living/bedroom.
So, instead, I just sit here and try to keep from going off the deep end while constantly kicking myself for not being better about getting out of here and also for being a horrible person who'd go around planning the end behind her back and just generally being a horrible partner in the meantime.
I... I actually feel physically sick after we've been "intimate"... And since I've been "distant" lately, she's gotten pushier.
Our 4-year anniversary (not married, just together) is coming up this Friday. I'm... Not really looking forward to the joyous occasion.
Also, yes... RIP Linda Brown.