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[Jopax]

So I've been trying to write a resignation letter/message of sorts for almost two weeks now. It's for a FB group I've been helping to run for the past, oh three years I think. Despite falling out with certain people and never really being close with the others I've been there trough thick and thin and tried to do what I could to provide people with something I've never really had when I needed it most(that is, a group of like minded art folk from the region and a place for them to exchange ideas, art and generally be awkward together). Anyways, we were never too active for the most part since folks are usually busy with whatever, this was especially true in the last four or so months, which combined with certain developments and shifts in direction (or rather, revelations of actual direction that I was unaware of) made me kinda lose the stomach for it. Last month or so I wasn't at all active, which was just as well because it seems nobody really was and nothing of the agenda was actually done, which made me decide that it was time to finally move on. Which brings me to the last dozen or so days and unsuccessful attempts at writing something that doesn't sound phony or jaded as fuck.

At this point I'm tempted to just say KTHNXBYE and leave or just do fuck all as everybody silently gives up on the whole thing :I

[Baffler]

The guard popped off my shitty Walmart trimmer, and I lost a big chunk of beard. It was unsalvageable, and I had to get rid of the rest. Combined with the fact I got a haircut yesterday I look like a completely different person. A person who is still in High School. It'll be at least a couple of weeks until I have a proper beard again, so I guess I just have to deal with looking like a kid until then.

[Iceblaster]

Meh. I dunno. I feel like this is a sad-mad thing. Brother won't hang out with me. Gets angry even when I just ask him once. Honestly, I have no idea if it's just me or if it's because he feels that maybe when he's in the mood he'll do stuff. I'm kinda just done on this whole hanging out thing atm. I have no IRL friends to hang out with. He's really the only person I can hang out with on a reasonable basis. I mean, sure i have one friend, but i rarely see her, so we're really just people who hang out occasionally and get along. I dunno. Meh. Just feel kinda shitty.

EDIT: Also there's the whole 'i spent an afternoon fucking up a perfectly good thread in other games.' I have no idea what I was thinking during that entire time.

[stabbymcstabstab]

The guard popped off my shitty Walmart trimmer, and I lost a big chunk of beard. It was unsalvageable, and I had to get rid of the rest. Combined with the fact I got a haircut yesterday I look like a completely different person. A person who is still in High School. It'll be at least a couple of weeks until I have a proper beard again, so I guess I just have to deal with looking like a kid until then.

I feel your pain man, I started using electrical tape around my razor guards after I was detained for 3 hours because non of my IDs looked liked me. Not mention I went from rugged outdoorsmen to high schooler for a week.

[chaotic skies]

Spoiler: stupid bullshit feel free to ignore (click to show/hide)

I have no idea how to even begin putting this into words. Well, I do actually. I just don't like my words. They make it sound like  I might have a problem. Which can't happen. Because I'm the calm perfect one. I can't have issues or worries; I have to keep this family together. Even if that means getting yelled at. And cheated. And lied to. It has to stay together. Right? This is normal.

Anyway. Forget that. That's just a thing I deal with. I'm really confused with girls and just people in general. For example; my girlfriend claims to have Dissociative Identity Disorder, or DID for short. Not too unrealistic; it's a real thing (I think), at least she's not making shit up. Unless what she claims to have gone through is a lie....then it's unrealistic. I think. Anyway she claims to have been hit in the head with a ladder recently and lost some of her memory....even though she seems to have forgotten about that and gone back to being herself. She claimed her older brother who had raped her for nearly....6 years was allowed to move back in with her and started doing it again. I'm also told by a good friend of her mother's that this stuff is largely lies and that it didn't happen....and I feel like I'm being cheated and lied to. Again.

I have no idea where I'm going with this honestly. Anyway. Friends are confusing. Many of them choose to ignore me or are more and more angry at me recently. Maybe I'm being an asshole. Yeah, that has to be it. One of my friends is (kind of? Maybe?) acting flirty with me again. This has happened before and nothing came of it. She's also acting flirty with someone I know she's liked in the past (sadly this person is straight, so she's sol). I feel like shit for being happy that this person is straight, because that means I have a tiny tiny tiny chance. And before I'm told to break up with my gf, I told her aaaaaall about this before I let her say yes. It's honestly me wanting to make her happy more than anything, which I'm fine with. I love seeing the smile on her face when I talk to her.

Anyway. TL;DR: Stupid bull shit I'll probably delete.

[Spehss _]

Stayed up too late again. Going to sleep now. If you ever think to yourself that you should stop looking at the internet and go to sleep because it's getting late and you are doing nothing important, do that, rather than what I do which is continuing to do bullshit.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs chaotic skies*

I don't have much advice here other than...Lying to yourself is a bad idea.  Stay safe and I hope things get better for you.

@Spehss_:Yeah, goto sleep.  *hugs*

[Yoink]

*hugs again, just to be sure*

Good to hear you're feeling better though.

Thanks! I think tomorrow should cheer me up quite a bit. Party times ahoy.

[Shadowlord]

My sad: The ACA/Obamacare is on the road to destruction.

Chaotic_skies: Why are you referring to your girlfriend as your family? If she is lying to you (I'm not saying she is) about things like that, and shows no sign of changing, wouldn't it be better to find someone who you can actually trust? Do you believe, like I do, that trust is vital to any long term romantic relationship?

It's also possible that your friends are distancing themselves from you because of your gf, for whatever reason. You'd have to ask them and hope they're willing to be honest with you about their reasons.

[Avis-Mergulus]

I am sorry if I'm intruding, but is, uh, the rape bit, something that you can dismiss casually because somebody else with possible vested interest told you so? Would she lie about that kind of thing, to her boyfriend, of all people? I seriously don't know your life or whatever, but this would be MAX CONCERN - territory for me, whether she's actually telling the truth or not. Somebody here is lying to you, and it's no good either way.

I'm very... uncomfortable with making definitive statements off of little information, but like, abuse and trauma resulting from abuse are real things that exist. And make people behave seemingly odd/irrational sometimes. This is something to be considered carefully, not dismissed as instantly implausible.

Anyway, good luck, I guess? I am just an internet stranger rando, after all.

[Shadowlord]

Other sad: I actually had to look up the zero wing intro transcript to make that reference because that's how fucked my memory is right now

[Jopax]

Welp, I cought a cold of some sort, think It's my usual winter fare, it's not serious enough to warrant any changes in routine or medicinal actions but it's strong and persistent enough to be a fucking nuisance. Constantly runny and clogged up nose, a dull headache that doesn't really go away and a somewhat sore throat (it does give me a pretty nice and raspy voice tho).

Oh well, it'll pass in a few weeks if I'm lucky :V

[Shadowlord]

Go around saying "I'M BATMAN"

[Sirus]

Today was rough and I am exhausted.

Also you'd think that after nearly two weeks of rainfall, all the idiots who don't know how to drive in the rain would have either learned or killed themselves off. Instead, they appear to be multiplying.

[☼Another☼]

Today was rough and I am exhausted.

Also you'd think that after nearly two weeks of rainfall, all the idiots who don't know how to drive in the rain would have either learned or killed themselves off. Instead, they appear to be multiplying.

At least you don't live up in the mountains. If you want to go anywhere, you've got idiots who don't know how to drive in snow. As well as really slow traffic.