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Huh. How did you know I usually have cold hands?
Nah, my problems aren't medicine related. I've been off my meds for months at a time without noticable improvements in sleep patterns or anxiety and whatnot. I understand why you mention it; I have a lot of things that are side-effects, but I have them with or without my meds. It also effects my personality, sure, but the major change is "Strong increase in my inhibitions" and given the hyperactivity angle, that's an improvement by my reckoning.
I know I react positively to sleep-aids. Good fucking thing, too, because my desire to sleep is absolutely paradoxical: I have no interest in sleep until I want to stay up. Decide to stay up all night? Suddenly I'm inches from crashing, even if I was hyper with energy before. It takes me 30 minutes to sleep even in ideal scenarios (quiet, no light, in a soft bed with covers); if there is an intrruption in ideal conditions, then my clock resets. And god forbid I'm not in a bed: Once I tried to sleep on the floor of an airport terminal. Got maybe, one hour of sleep? Two? And yet, if I don't
want to sleep its actually quite easy to doze off for me: for example, when I'm taking a cab or on a train or bus late at night, I can quite easily doze off. In highschool when I didn't get enough sleep, I've fallen asleep both in class and on my breaks: so on desks and on the floor. Yet if I ever *wanted* to do that, it would be impossible. I have proof, even!Once I took a five hour bus from NYC to Syracuse (and back). The first trip left around 7 AM, and I needed to read stuff during my trip, so obviously it was very easy to nap. My second trip left Syracuse at around 12:00 AM. Out of all the people on that bus (surprisingly full, actually), I think there were maybe 4 people awake: The driver, two passengers, and me. I spent that entire trip impossibly awake. Couldn't sleep a wink.
I'm very grateful for the existence of Tylenol PM is what I'm saying. My sleep problems over the past few days have been because I couldn't take them: the issue was that they would knock me out (usually until at least 11 AM), and since I needed to be up at 9:00 AM, I couldn't take them.