Seek help.
I want to, but I'm so fucking terrified of the response I might get that I feel like I can't. One of the things I'm used to being told is, "Stop overreacting, you're fine" and if I got that from a professional I would just freak out and I can't imagine that I won't be told that. Chances are that even if a professional didn't tell me that I'm overreacting they'd tell my parents who would tell me to get over myself because I really don't have it that bad.
Sorry to anyone I might have inadvertently insulted, by the way. I'm just bad at trying to help myself
Ooooh :O
Alright, student of that general profession here, and I forward
everyone's note that, as said nicely by hector:
You are cutting yourself. Any professional (I assume you're referring to mental health pros) that is made aware of that and tells you you're overreacting probably most definitely shouldn't be a professional.
Because, first of all, other than the spiel I posted before about how a professional may react (which can be B12-search-engine'd by putting in 'professional' or other terms), is that the main foundation of how they will respond revolves around concern for the individual. So think of it like a medical doctor treating a wound that you may have somehow scraped yourself because of a very accident-prone environment as a blunt comparison--they won't go all "Oh wow, you hurt yourself :v why didn't you wear any protective gear?", just like a health professional oriented towards your mental and social health not going "Stop overreacting, you're fine."
...I seriously have the impulse to just paste many of my notes online to dissuade that illusion of doubt that prevents people from going to these professionals :< But I can't, because technology limitations.
But seriously--as a student of Psychology, which is one prerequisite of finishing a mastery course of a Counselor (you'll need extra years if you wish to practice in a clinical field
), they won't act...unreasonable in the ways you may believe they will. They will
respond very well to any request, like if you're uncomfortable in the situation of:
Chances are that even if a professional didn't tell me that I'm overreacting they'd tell my parents who would tell me to get over myself because I really don't have it that bad.
You can just say 'please don't tell my parents {ie because I've heard that if you people hear about the person hurting themselves they'll just tell the parents and [insert continuation or your other thoughts, modify this idea to your context]}' and they'll follow on. These things are put into training and practice towards us--because it's like putting the concern towards other lives
as a profession; these situations are generally thought over even in hypothetical scenarios to provide readiness for those who will act as future counselors (and otherwise).
Also you can seriously ask them anything and you'll get a response on it.
They won't shout at you, demean you, or anything harsh. I mean in my experience, if you both get to know each other, they can even put humor in what they'll say if it helps.
Sorry to anyone I might have inadvertently insulted, by the way. I'm just bad at trying to help myself
No. You're not.
You're in a situation where experience and exposure--which bluntly means 'age'--may not show a better path because of negative experiences happening
first. All we ask as a whole online here, is for you to persevere in seeking aid, and if ever you have doubts, to sound them off in a way that you can receive feedback to future actions (that we can explain and all).
Edoot:
Unless you admit to planning to kill someone. In which case they're allowed to warn said person.
Ahh. I remember a case presented when we studied this as one of the initiators towards approaching confidentiality. The
Tarasoff case :O