For this reason you need to set up that alarm and limit whatever you've decided to do to one or two hours tops. The trick is in making yourself to do something do that you cant avoid doing, that, even if for just very briefly, disconnects your thoughts from your depression/issues and gives you feeling of accomplishment or captivation. You may not yet know what works which is why you just need to try something.
See, you've already asked for help here. Writing to people here was the step one in helping yourself. Step two is helping yourself in the physical world. Are you in Sydney? I used to know someone there. If you dont want to decide yourself, maybe people here in B12 can find you something cheap or free to do out of your home. That is, if you dont want to see a psychiatric and get help that way yet, be it just talk or meds. I'd recommend talking to a professional any way but you can try supplementing professional help by yourself.
edit: and yeah drop the "my issues arent important" bs.
Nah, I'm not in Sydney. I'm in a small-medium town that's technically a city. I might try the alarm thing though, dunno if it'll help with my utter lack of desire to do anything though. But it could help, so I'll give it a go. Anyway, I'm not saying that my issues aren't important. They're very important, to me. People I actually know just tend to ignore me though and that kind of gives me the impression that I'm not important and my problems aren't problematic enough for them to care. Bay12 is different though, you guys are nice
drop the "i'm arrogant, my problems aren't important" shit because it's flagrantly untrue and not doing you any good
talk to a therapist if you can
or pm someone on the bay twelves if you're desperate
It's kind of hard to not think you're arrogant when people constantly tell you that your arrogant. Part of the problem with talking to a therapist might be the fact that I've got a ridiculous amount of pride and see asking for any sort of help as a failure.
STOP PUTTING ENTIRE SAD THREAD POSTS IN SPOILERS
Not sure if this is directed at me or Erkki but if it's directed at Erkki it should be directed at me since they just quoted my post. As to my habit of using spoilers I don't know if I can stop it all that easily. I've tried to stop before but go straight back to it. It makes me feel safer/better for some weird and probably dumb reason.
My headphones broke, it makes me feel worse than usual.