cinder you have no idea how much i want to say things that are genuinely on my mind but which would make me sound like a huge asshole because i know you have insecurities
But this i will tell you: If you don't want people to dislike you, then stop saying that they do, because what if they suddenly agree one day? Shoving words into peoples mouth is both impolite and, in my case, quite peeving. But here, let me tell you what respect is: Respect is me deciding to not tear into you for what i perceive as mistakes that you don't necessarily know of. Respect is also me saying yes, i do believe you're a good person at heart, even if you are a bit egocentric. Respect is NOT me or anyone else following your every move and responding positively to your every action, however small it may be. That's just mindless fanaticism, and i'm not going to do that. What i am willing to be, however, is a friend.
@Rolan:
Yeah, probably, thanks. It's just a bit worrying when something that usually only happens occasionally (the discharge bit) suddenly happens three days in a row, namsayin'? Thankfully, it is listed as a possible symptom of IBS in many places, which does alleviate the hypochondria a bit. More annoyingly right now is that i am horrendously tired and it's hard to tell myself to go to sloop when my bowels are being silly. >:I