More of a rage than a sad.
Been dealing with a guy who wants to join my pathfinder, and he's new to pathfinder, which is understandable; everyone else in the game is new to the system too. But instead of doing what the others do and keeping it simple with the basic stuff, what does he do? Dabbles in EVERY SINGLE THIRD PARTY CONTENT. Every hour, I get like 3 questions, and he doesn't even have anything put down. I literally come home every day and I open up my laptop to sit down and relax after working 9+ hours of construction, and this guy, as soon as I'm seen as online on steam, HE ASKS ME MORE QUESTIONS. Most of which is "can I do x?" and most of which is things in game. His concept was originally to be a mad doctor who fucked with biology, but no classes did that, so he scrapped it. And then he has a million more questions, and then he come sup to me and asks me if he can be a teletubby... IN FUCKING PATHFINDER. I said no, but he refused to drop it. When I asked what he meant afte saying no like 4 times, he said "i'll be too stupid to know im hurting people" and I agreed, assuming thats all he meant. NOPE. HE WANTS A FUCKING TELETUBBY SUIT TOO. I've had just about enough of him because the guy sent me like 5 questions to me in the span of finishing one question and me going to take a shit and him coming back. I answered his questions and after arguing, he puts it all on me and says its all MY fault. FUCK YOU, YOU DECIDED TO JOIN, YOU DECIDED TO DO THIRD PARTY CONTENT, AND YOU DECIDED TO NOT TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY, YOU OWN UP.
I gave him a deadline. I'm not gonna hold his fucking hand for this long on doing something his friend and several others did in a week's time and its taken him about a month. I'm actually tempted to kick him off the waitlist because he isn't taking this seriously AND his character concept ALONE is an insult to my players and the world I spent MONTHS working on before even starting it.
I just want to come home and sit down and just have some time to relax and not be bombarded with 50 questions as soon as I sit down. Most of these questions also suggest he's dropped some other concept, which is all he has right now.
I can see why I blocked him before; the guy will NOT leave me alone. Like dude, if I sit down and because I auto log into steam, that doesn't mean I want to talk to you or hear you whine or complain or ask me questions you can figure out on your own. I literally gave him the resources to do things, but he instead asks me. The guy even messages me AT WORK when I get a notif from steam about a wishlist item going on sale.
For another sad, my sister, while I'm extremely happy for her getting accepted into college and finally getting to move out of this shitty household, it made me realize that I'll be the only target for my mom's shit. Today even, I called her to ask her if I had time to go to Chatam (16km away) because I know my sister had to be somewhere. What does she do? SHE FUCKING SPENDS FIVE MINUTES YELLING AT ME ABOUT SHIT THAT I DOESN'T EVEN INVOLVE ME. AND I STILL DIDN'T EVEN GET TO FUCKING GET AN ANSWER. And then I tell her to stop being juvinille because I told her that this isn't my problem and she should be bringing it up to my sister and SHE GOT OFFENDED AND UPSET BECAUSE I TOLD HER THAT AND ENDED THE CONVERSATION, NOT LETTING ME SAY ANYTHING. She does this all the time like a six year old kid who goes "ok, bye!" when they're annoyed that they have to do chores.
She's fucking miserable and she takes out her depression and anger out on me all the fucking time and then expects me to fix it or have the answers. My group leader in rehab even told me to not let myself get stuck in business that isn't mine when it comes to her. While he says I'm not a parent (especially to my sister), my mom starts saying "oh, YOU'RE the better parent, so go ahead. Do whatever the fuck you want! I don't care! I'm not helping her! Thats YOUR job!" and suddenly I'm forced to miss MORE work time because my mom is too fucking lazy to get off her ass and be a parent.
I'm fucking jealous and disheartened because my sister is moving to Chatam and I'm stuck living here in this shithole still... My only solace is the fact my dad and I are getting closer every day, and thats it. My mother is ruining my life; I haven't coded since school started and I've only hung out with freinds three times since mid april. Why? My mom thinks that I shouldn't HAVE friends, that I should "be a man" and do nothing but work. I had a girl I was gonna ask out when I moved out,but since that fell through, I COULD ask her out now, but fuck, I can't because I'm always busy AND if I try to get a day off, my mom harasses me! Like holy shit, just beacuse you're miserable and alone doesn't mean I have to be!
I fucking hate my life... I keep getting fucking screwed over, and the more times I get screwed over, the more I just want to give up and accept the shitty life I'm gonna have to deal with... It doesn't help that EVERYONE relies on me to do everything for them save for my dad who wants me to do my best, and my friends who want me to be there with them. Some days, I wish I WASN'T the big brother, or the firstborn, or the one who got forced to rehab.
And that's another thing. My mom complains that I haven't been going to rehab meetings but I don't have time anymore. I'm busy doing work and the off chance that I DO have time to go, I have other shit to do!
I just want to hang out with my friends again... I want to be able to fuck around and do stupid shit with my closest friends, fanboy and talk writing with my ex, start to get to know that girl I want to ask out better, play random, stupid games with my classmates, play D&D with some people on skype or in person...
I'm miserable because I want to be with the people I love... I miss my friends so much...
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