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[Orange Wizard]

Welp

[Yoink]

I just turned 21 and I dont have degree, any useful or interesting skills, meaningful job, and also I am stupid.

It's not so bad, you're now old enough to drink, assuming you're American! And booze over there is cheap as!
Cheers!

[hops]

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How would you define 'like' in this context, though?

Well then mom. I remember why I don't like telling you about my problems. "Hey ma I have a problem!" "That's cool. Hey want to hear about this private school I've already talked about again? *insert rant about how I should uproot my life again because this school is so much better*" "Thanks mom that REALLY helped."

Ah, I wouldn't blame your mom for that. I mean, it's just a normal thing that old people do. Because of the generation gap, they just aren't comfortable with young people problems. This is what friends are for.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs absolutely everybody (platonically), especially the people who really need it (NullForceOmega this means you.  You need more hugs.).*

[Shook]

*applies bed to Shook*

I hate repetitive grind of homework too.

The point of doing it, though, is to drill the process in so far that you can do it from memory as opposed to needing any resources whatsoever.



As for not wanting people to tell you what to do...Tell yourself you're going to do studying, instead of thinking about it as 'someone gave me work'?  A bit of an off-the-wall-and-the-top-of-my-head suggestion, but it struck me as a potential solution.

Have you considered going into the arts?

I feel a lot better after sleeping, thanks. :v (even though i managed to launch myself off the side of the bed due to semi-dreaming about a huge spider on the wall right in front of me)

But the thing is, the more i repeat something, the less i want to do it again, even if it ends up becoming trivial. I've learned a lot, absolutely, but i just feel like the way we're supposed to learn in school is utterly soul crushing, and for that exact same reason, i think that having to grind in games is terrible design. Repeating a bunch of arbitrary tasks until it sticks will work eventually, sure, but it's also fantastically dull. They don't really do much in "here's a situation in which you might actually use this", instead preferring "ok just learn this because there's a slight chance that you might need it at some point in the future". The latter just seems meaningless to me, and i'm sure that every single one of you knows the feeling of having to do something that feels meaningless.

As for going into arts, i have absolutely considered that, but there are three main problems: 1) Studying art is also set up in a stressful school-like manner (i fear that it would take the joy out of drawing), 2) A degree in art is worth about as much as toilet paper in the current job market (like it or not, i will need a job), and 3) You have to be pretty damn good to begin with in order to get in. I'm not a symbolic artsy guy who draws "the feeling of wind on my soul caressing me in the dawn of the evening" stuff, fuck no. I draw goofy faces and dinosaurs in plate mail, not because it symbolizes how much i love to light my dick on fire, but because it's fun. In other words, i'm probably a budding cartoonist. Maybe there's a study for that? I hope so. :v

[Kot]

So she appeared in my dream fucking again. It's... not that bad actually, but still causes feelings.

[karhell]

@Shook: Well as far as I understand things, art school is also invaluable to cartoonists, since you learn a whole bunch of other styles that can help you refine your own.
As for "The feeling of the fire on my dick caressing me in the midst of the trauma centre", take that as a challenge to expand your limits and draw something different.
It might not be a subject you particularly like, but who knows? You might gain some insight on how to draw better plate armour for your dinosaurs (or how to fire-proof it )

On a side note, I absolutely agree with you that insisting that art must be symbolic, and that "the slant on that tree there symbolises the grief that the artist felt at the loss of a friend" style declarations clearly indicate the cephalorectal condition of the speaker.
Art can be fun, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

[TheBiggerFish]

@Shook:What karhell said.  Definitely.

[hops]

Sorry I'm not keeping up with the sadness, guys.

So she appeared in my dream fucking again. It's... not that bad actually, but still causes feelings.

* Cinder hugs

That's rough, dude. I'm guessing that since you said you still see her around that doesn't make it any easier.

[chaotic skies]

I hate my dreams. One day I don't remember them at all, and they're probably about being a dwarf or some shit that'd be really cool. The rest of the time it's about dead people or some other shit that just makes me feel like total shit, and I can remember it perfect.

[TheBiggerFish]

Some combination of just a sad mood and a sad song just...Sadded me.

And the people I feel the most comfortable talking about this to are basically strangers on the Internet...

That song was really appropriate...because dammit I'm lonely all right.

[chaotic skies]

That's the best part of the internet; you can talk about whatever you want, and as long as you don't give out your name, most people won't be able to find you.

[TheBiggerFish]

I know, but I wish I could talk to actual meatspace people...

That's the sadding bit...

[Shook]

hey

hey TBF

*brohug*

Shyness sucks, i know the feeling. :<

@Shook: Well as far as I understand things, art school is also invaluable to cartoonists, since you learn a whole bunch of other styles that can help you refine your own.
As for "The feeling of the fire on my dick caressing me in the midst of the trauma centre", take that as a challenge to expand your limits and draw something different.
It might not be a subject you particularly like, but who knows? You might gain some insight on how to draw better plate armour for your dinosaurs (or how to fire-proof it )

On a side note, I absolutely agree with you that insisting that art must be symbolic, and that "the slant on that tree there symbolises the grief that the artist felt at the loss of a friend" style declarations clearly indicate the cephalorectal condition of the speaker.
Art can be fun, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Yeah, good points all round. I just kind of have a Jonah complex going on, which kind of gets in the way of a lot of things, and a shit-tier sense of self-worth that says that i'll probably never be good enough to get accepted into Fart School^TM. I still occasionally have dreams where i'm suddenly ultra fabulous at arting, so i think that i can safely say that it's a dream of mine, and i would absolutely love to be a magic-tier artist. Maybe that's what i should work towards after folk high school?

[Trapezohedron]

Mm. Cephalorectal. New word to add to my dictionary.

Shyness does suck. Hell, it's the number 1 single biggest reason I've not started a relationship with anyone yet; I can't muster the courage to break the mold out of rejection -- I mean I do understand the negatives of rejection, and I believe I am capable of handling it, but paradoxically, you're already afraid of the process, that it might possibly go sour for one moment and turn you into a fool.

Then there's also the doubts of whether you're alright and fit for someone instead of the other guy, who in your mind is better, richer, and more socially-inclined than you are.

'Course, I'm slowly growing up from all that, but it's still there; the fear of failure is still significant, and I still can't get myself to do the things I want, because I fear so much.

At this rate I'll forever be alone.