I'm confused.
I still know I'm madly in love with her and I know it since I realize it all the time, I still have dreams with her (I know how it sounds, but hey, it's not like I have a lot to say when it comes to what I'm dreaming about, unless, I dunno, LD but that doesn't happen commonly) but now, instead of... sadness and rage (?) that I had before, it's mostly calming. Very confusing.
It's really confusing because part of me tells me I should hate her, other that I should do something and still try to somehow get her and I still think of him in hostile terms but on the other hand I... am okay? It's weird, I should proably be happy that I am getting over it (am I though?) but I kind of feel that is... wrong? Why would I, it's really confusssiinnnggg...
I dunno, we still don't speak to each other but I am also very confused by the fact that she seems a bit... sad about this whole thing? We make some eye contact from time to time and I get this feeling in general (or maybe I'm just imagining things) but I'm not sure what does it mean... but, considering that I would proably beg her on knees for any kind of attention it better mean nothing. I want to, I don't want to, I'm okay, I'm not okay, I'm horribly terribly confused.
On the other hand one of my teeth started to hurt so maybe I can blame it all on it. I don't know why, maybe beacuse I'm confused.