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[RedKing]

Or bi. Doubles your options.

[Helgoland]

I sometimes get this feeling, I mean, don't take me wrong, I am not going to kill myself even if simply out of spite, but sometimes I would want an accident to happen to me. Like, if I were to lose balance and fall on the tracks before incoming train I wouldn't even try to roll off I'd let a truck hit me or... something. I wouldn't actively try to stop my death, but... at least I'm not going to work actively towards it but I don't think I would mind a lot.

Hm, I know that feel. It's sort of the little brother of suicidal ideation - these days I start monitoring my thinking very closely if shit like that crops up. Happens to most people at some point or other, I guess, but it's not that far away from seriously ugly stuff.

[Vector]

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[Rolan7]

*becomes gay so parents will stop urging me to procreate*
*realize I actually am gay*
woops

[TheBiggerFish]

*becomes confused to maximize local confusion*

[Baffler]

I sometimes get this feeling, I mean, don't take me wrong, I am not going to kill myself even if simply out of spite, but sometimes I would want an accident to happen to me. Like, if I were to lose balance and fall on the tracks before incoming train I wouldn't even try to roll off I'd let a truck hit me or... something. I wouldn't actively try to stop my death, but... at least I'm not going to work actively towards it but I don't think I would mind a lot.

Hm, I know that feel. It's sort of the little brother of suicidal ideation - these days I start monitoring my thinking very closely if shit like that crops up. Happens to most people at some point or other, I guess, but it's not that far away from seriously ugly stuff.

I know this feeling pretty well. It's hard to express how much I hate the idea of suicide, but at the same time I can never fully shake the feeling that there's nothing but solitude, failure, and misery in my future, and I have only myself to blame. This sort of thinking seems like a compromise between the two.

[Rose]

I still don't know if I threw myself in front of a truck or not.  >_>

[TheBiggerFish]

Japa?!

[Loud Whispers]

Are you good Japa? Sounds like you need help from someone

[Rolan7]

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[Criptfeind]

That's pretty interesting, I wonder if that is what is called "intrusive thoughts". I have a fear of heights, and it's not caused by a feeling that I might accidentally fall off, but rather that I might purposefully fall off. I've learned that's very common among people that fear heights, I wonder if that's related, a common manifestation of those types of thoughts?

[Rose]

Are you good Japa? Sounds like you need help from someone

I'm okay, but I was pretty depressed for a while, and did consider throwing myself under a truck or train or whatever loads of times.

And then one day I'm driving my scooter out the gate at work, and then I'm in my Boss's car with my head bleeding, and I have no idea what happened in between.

Was it am accident? Was it deliberate?
I don't know if I'll ever know.

[HAMMERMILL]

I'm kinda bummed I can't sleep even though I got maybe 18 hours total since monday.

[Xantalos]

That's pretty interesting, I wonder if that is what is called "intrusive thoughts". I have a fear of heights, and it's not caused by a feeling that I might accidentally fall off, but rather that I might purposefully fall off. I've learned that's very common among people that fear heights, I wonder if that's related, a common manifestation of those types of thoughts?

Happens to a lot of people; oftentimes if you're getting a lot of them it's a symptom of built-up stress and such. It's not only limited up wondering about hurting yourself; for instance, when I see babies or on occasion elderly people, thoughts intrude upon my mind of 'what would it feel like if I just took their neck and snapped it?' Or stuff like that.

[LordBaal]

I'm a grown up. I have a decent job. Hell I'm a married man with no children... yet I can't fucking buy a game over the inernet without my government permission? Well not exactly buying a game. I can't buy anything in dollars or euros without asking my fucking communist government if they are in the mood to allow me to do so with the meager 300 bucks I'm allowed to expend yearly. And no they don't gift them away, you have to buy them with our local currency from them at a prettu hefty price.

I'm a men of few vices. I don't smoke anymore (quitted 10 years ago), and don't drink beyond the occasional beer or rum with my wife and friends. My only hobby are computer games. It tookme five years to save up for my computer and then a a lot of more saving waiting for sales to buy the games I dreamt off over the Internet. Because even when piracy is the norm here I don't wanna be part of it. I'm called a moron but I pay no attention,  I know thats the rigth thing to do.

This whole situation made I couldn't get Legacy of void, a game I awaited four years. And now is going yo make me miss Battlefleet Gothic Armada. A game I've been waiting literally for over teen years now, ever since I knew of the TT game.

I fucking hate this stupid government, that as you migth guessed simply said "lol no" while they are making regular trips to caribean islands to make the grocery shopping and buy yatchs and hummers....