My ex just told me, without saying the exact words but everything that means it, that she's given up on life... She doesn't want to accept things will get better, she accepts that she's going to die young, she accepts she's going to feel pain until she dies, and she accepts that she won't do anything with her life because of her problems.
It's like watching someone taking their last moments in life before they die, begging for that final rest, except they still have years on their life left to live.
And there isn't a damn thing I can do. I can't make her laugh, I can't encourage her to do things, I can't even hug her and tell her that things will be alright. I fucking hate it.
This is the same thing that happened with that girl I fell head over heels for, except I know for a fact that my ex isn't lying about this (unlike that girl, who I don't know what to believe anymore with her...). I fucking want to do something, but all she wants me to do is sit around her, near her, don't talk to her, don't do anything and don't leave without her knowing... I'm getting fucked up thoughts in my head, thinking shes doing it because she doesn't want to die alone, or that she doesn't know any better and doesn't want to put the effort to do anything else. She never goes outside her room, she barely does anything but watch TV over and over, and the only times she leaves her room, she goes to work or school, and goes right back home...
I'm scared for her and I can't do a fucking thing but watch her be in pain and suffer...