I'm finding it very hard to muster up any enthusiasm for my Northwards trip in a couple of days.
This is still a sad. I should probably be all happy about the chance to catch up with old friends and all that jazz, but instead I just stress about how much of it is unplanned and undecided, and how I don't really have any convenient places to stay in my home city anymore.
Also I'm thinking of how out of practice I'll be with regards to using the public transport in said city...
And I never really have enough money to live comfortably
here as it is, let alone going on a trip.
I'll probably just have to make some very brief visit(s) to a friend or two and my mother, then just go stay with my father in the little town he lives in for a few weeks and leech off him. He wouldn't mind, in fact that's what he wants me to do. But still, would be good to spend more than a day or two visiting people in the city.
My luggage situation is confusing, too. Not sure if I'm going to take a large suitcase or just a backpack. I guess I could take a suitcase and leave that with my dad whilst visiting people... actually, that seems like a good idea. At least I've come up with one good idea from this rant, I guess.
It's almost 2 in the morning on a school night. I have classes tomorrow and shit is gonna suck, why do I do this to myself.
I suspect it's partly because I hate the classes and don't want to sleep because the sooner I sleep the sooner it's morning and the sooner I have to go to class.
I feel you.
Don't have any advice to give, but that's the sort of shit I do to myself, too.