A rant
Goddammit I can't even keep up the appearance that I'm okay anymore, I broke down for just a few seconds and everyone is giving me unwanted attention. I've done and said awful things, and I'm getting help that other people, more innocent people, people more in need aren't? Life isn't fair to some people, but why are things in my favor now? Is everything down to luck? I don't understand. It's wrong to take this help, use it, appreciate it, right? Just like the other spoiled people who use resources they don't need. Things are getting worse quicker, and help from others is not something I wanted. It isn't fair to me or others. So much for me to sort out and deal with, and this comes up. People sort out much worse and serious things alone, why can't I do this myself?
Everyone's different, man. Some can cope with stress in a particular aspect of their existence, or from a certain thing, but not others. Acknowledging you have a weakness and need help is a strong thing to do, since few people are really willing to admit they can't cope alone.
If you need help dealing with something you take it man. Just because you
thinkmsomeone else has it worse, doesn't mean you should refuse help.
If you feel you need to pay it back or something, volunteer your time to do something to help someone else, like a charity shop or something. At least then you're helping out other folks too.