Finally ended things with that girl... Things started to get really toxic between us, especially with her thinking I started the rumors about her that I was the last to know about. I told her every rumor I was told and told her that I don't want to believe them, and they hurt to hear, especially the one about her never really liking me. She tried afterwards to guilt trip me, but after talking in my rehab group, I got yelled at by my group leader (and several other people) to stop talking to her, stop talking about her and just let things die, otherwise I'm just feeding the fire.
I feel empty... But I feel relieved. Like a big weight was finally taken off of me. I'm still hurt, and she seems to be making a last ditch effort to drag as many of my friends down with her, but they know better.
I don't hate her. I pity her, but I won't do anything for her anymore. The only thing I did was I gave her Brentwood's phone number and told her that if the rumors are true, she will need it when she loses everything. If the rumors are false, I hope that she takes it so she can finally let her emotional and mental problems be at rest.
I won't talk about her anymore hopefully after this post (on here, this is the last you'll hear of her hopefully), and I can only hope that she sees the hurt she caused and finally sees she needs help. I don't wish anything bad on her except the thing that will bring her to finally seek help.
In other news, I'm still broke as fuck and I feel terrible because my mother has to loan me money for gas and shit. I hate doing so because she not only gives me shit for not being independent, but it makes me feel like I'm still stuck relying on her. Yes, I work a job that fucks me over if I have any scheduling problems. Yes, I have a phone bill, textbooks, car insurance and a savings account to maintain. Yes, I have money problems. But I don't want my mom to have to bail me out of everything...