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[highmax28]

Finally ended things with that girl... Things started to get really toxic between us, especially with her thinking I started the rumors about her that I was the last to know about. I told her every rumor I was told and told her that I don't want to believe them, and they hurt to hear, especially the one about her never really liking me. She tried afterwards to guilt trip me, but after talking in my rehab group, I got yelled at by my group leader (and several other people) to stop talking to her, stop talking about her and just let things die, otherwise I'm just feeding the fire.

I feel empty... But I feel relieved. Like a big weight was finally taken off of me. I'm still hurt, and she seems to be making a last ditch effort to drag as many of my friends down with her, but they know better.

I don't hate her. I pity her, but I won't do anything for her anymore. The only thing I did was I gave her Brentwood's phone number and told her that if the rumors are true, she will need it when she loses everything. If the rumors are false, I hope that she takes it so she can finally let her emotional and mental problems be at rest.

I won't talk about her anymore hopefully after this post (on here, this is the last you'll hear of her hopefully), and I can only hope that she sees the hurt she caused and finally sees she needs help. I don't wish anything bad on her except the thing that will bring her to finally seek help.



In other news, I'm still broke as fuck and I feel terrible because my mother has to loan me money for gas and shit. I hate doing so because she not only gives me shit for not being independent, but it makes me feel like I'm still stuck relying on her. Yes, I work a job that fucks me over if I have any scheduling problems. Yes, I have a phone bill, textbooks, car insurance and a savings account to maintain. Yes, I have money problems. But I don't want my mom to have to bail me out of everything...

[Neonivek]

Whelp my broken heart is finally no longer constantly hurting.

I am deeply saddened but at least I am out of the worst of it.

[Spehss _]

Stayed up too late. 1:30 in the morning now.

Bad habits are terrible things and I hate 'em for being so easy to keep up. Like procrastinating. But I'll totally stop procrastinating on stopping bad habits tomorrow though, I swear.

[Tiruin]

Stayed up too late. 1:30 in the morning now.

Bad habits are terrible things and I hate 'em for being so easy to keep up. Like procrastinating. But I'll totally stop procrastinating on stopping bad habits tomorrow though, I swear.

Try writing what you have to do down, and putting the note somewhere you usually see it when you think you may get into a bad habit again.

[Graknorke]

I could make a "Things that made you feel submissive today thread" ;3

But that's not on the list.

It's a subemotion of Scared.

Pretty sure it isn't.

[Neonivek]

Day 3... and going

[Tack]

A small and selfish sad.
Been watching Spartacus. Really wanna play Rome 2.
Have never missed my computer more. Fallout can go die, I need my epic strategy fix.

[hops]

I could make a "Things that made you feel submissive today thread" ;3

But that's not on the list.

It's a subemotion of Scared.

Pretty sure it isn't.

Agonistic behaviour dude.

[WillowLuman]

Welp. Alan Rickman's dead

[scrdest]

Welp. Alan Rickman's dead

Just heard, came in to post it. What is it with good artists dying of cancer within a couple of weeks from each other?

[Rose]

Invited a kitchenbot into my house to give me an estimate.

So expensive.

[miauw62]

nothing like getting screwed the fuck over by an EBIN , MAO XPRAN K XDDD from your BEST FUCKING FIRENDD
FUCK

[RedKing]

Invited a kitchenbot into my house to give me an estimate.

So expensive.

Just remember, an estimate is probably on the low end of the actual costs.

[Kot]

I did everything I could, basically got what I thought I wanted, which is... peace, or at least ceasefire, got on better terms with everyone, said sorry because I was being annoying, stuff...
... but it still hurts so fucking badly. It's even worse now because I can't show it or tell anyone because we agreed on that (I basically brought this on myself) and yet I am still internally dying every time I see her doing ANYTHING, and it's unspeakable when I see them together. And I have to just smile and walk by and pretend nothing is going on. It took me three (well, kind of six, but we didin't finish it until tuesday) days to get completly exhausted and now I feel like I'm slowly slipping into what was going with me before I met her.
EDIT:
Also, Miauw, you're basically the only person whose troubles I'm trying to still follow, so you got that going for you. Stay stronk.

[miauw62]

Same to you, man.

And it gets better, eventually. Nothing you can do but wait it out.