Stuff happened
And well
Stuff
Hope said "stuff" wasn't too bad, whatever it was. And hopefully some good stuff is soon to follow!
I'm not... fully sure. First of all, I tried to have fun and not care... and it kind of worked, but of course he appeared and it turns out she lied to me and totally knew what was going to happen but - ugh, well, you can imagine I wasn't really happy. Some other, not really important stuff went on (not really a scene but it was tense enough to nearly kill the damn party and you could proably serve the atmosphere instead of cake), I went outside to think a bit and had some really supportive talk with people I would least expect it from... and then our... mutual friends literally dragged her outside and told us to talk or
else.Despite it wasn't in exactly good circumstances, we talked for over an hour and proably would longer if she didin't have to go (parents... I pity her if she will have to explain the whole situation to them). We didin't determine anything except that we totally won't use electronic communication because it doesn't serve us well - I overthink and end up writing stuff I wouldn't say in real life or would say differently, which, in turn, she takes it way too much... personally. I guess we will talk one day or another in future, because this time I am pretty sure she didin't fake it, since there is only so much you can imitate. I mean, Holy God Emperor on His Golden Lavatory, we understand each other... well-ish, I guess, which
is something. When we talk we take it with really big distance, joke about everything, constantly have to force ourselves back on the thread (well, at one moment we were reflecting on human nature, soul, biochemistry and whatnot, and at another we just laughed at things... we laughed at a lot of things) and it just goes really damn well, even if at the end she became a bit irritated because I would want to talk more and she would want to not have her parents do an interrogation, but hey, I guess I got what I wanted and what other people wanted.
But on the other hand I again understood why I fell in love with her and that friendzone isin't the thing I wish for, but I guess that is my problem. Also, hey, it's not like that she is getting married, the situation is still not conclusively resolved, stuff might happen, I might "crush" on someone else, someone else might "crush" on me, literally everything can happen...
And, you guys know... well... hope dies last. I would want to say something supportive to all of you that are sad but I'm going to do... stuff. I have a bunch of people to say sorry, and proably other things, to.