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[TheBiggerFish]

I seem to have lost any ability to make decent art, which kind of put a dampener on me getting a new graphic tablet.

You WHAT?
Impossible.

[Fniff]

An old friend of my family died last night.

My condolences. It always happens around this time...

[Worldmaster27]

bwaddly bwap bwap!

[Spehss _]

Spoiler: stupid depressing bullshit, ignore (click to show/hide)

hi yeah ik ive been more or less appearing happy lately but i just really want to die rn and ill be in niagara falls soon and tbh im not really sure if i want to come back

ik people say they love me and that it would hurt them a lot but like everyone'll get over it and ill be forgotten, and yeahh why should i not throw myself away its all just going to be more school, more hw, more yelling, more doubt, more fighting, more hurt, more bullshit, more caring too much, more confusion, more anxiety, more everything, and its too much and i wont have to deal with any of that if i leave. its easier this way and i cant hurt anyone more too

its hard to feel loved when the person you thought was your best friend pretty much tells you "That sucks, I'll deal with you later." and idk everything has been hurting and its the best choice for everyone in the end, myself included

tbh it doesnt matter, ik ill probably back out bc im too selfish and cowardly but everything sucks and nothing will be okay i cant help but feel and idk what to do, its easier if i just take the jump when i can

Spoiler (click to show/hide)

Depending on how good and caring and not-shit your parents are, they'd probably care a bit if you offed yourself. Like, possibly "utterly destroy their lives" kind of bit. And of course bay12 would be at least a bit bummed if we heard you offed yourself.

Probably sounds like guilt tripping, but it's an important point to keep in mind.

Spoiler: I'd nest this in the above spoiler if I could. (click to show/hide)

No clue who Kyle is, just an image I found on the internet, but goddamn it makes me feel some feels.

[Trapezohedron]

A lot of depression stems from the fact that you feel very lonely, and often times we judge others as unwilling to listen outright. Have you tried asking them? Have you poured out your heart to them?

Granted, it is often unwise to tell others your problem, if you have trust issues, but at the very least, before you finalize your decision to off yourself, go talk to your parents about it as a heart-to-heart.

I might sound rude in the above phrase, or cold, but there's no two ways around it except letting it all out and go. It festers and rots you inside, and while it may be your life, there are a lot of people dependent on your presence for their happiness, so I suppose a modicum of warning them what's up and asking for advice is what they deserve.

[Amperzand]

Seriously, suicide is a bad answer to problems. A few years ago the partially-estranged daughter of somebody I barely knew killed herself, and that still sucked for everybody even a little involved. It would be much worse still for those who actually knew the person. Suicide es no bueno, ochen ploxha.

[Tiruin]

A storm is coming...
Right after a storm just passed.
Related link (with lacking linking to weather websites due to lacking time).

Unsure whether to post this in the terrified thread or the sad one. Just bluh.

_{I sometimes wish we had four seasons, due to the many effects those have on the weather other than storms at times.}

[Insanegame27]

re: Suicide.

Spoiler: stupid depressing bullshit, ignore (click to show/hide)

tbh it doesnt matter, ik ill probably back out bc im too selfish and cowardly

i should probably get some sleep

The selfish and cowardly thing is jumping. Trust me. A friend on the bus tried doing it three times and regretted it the moment his feet left the ground. It takes true courage and selflessness to keep living and smiling in the face of everything life throws at you. Just focus and sort a goal of doing something and let it take your whole mind. Get into boxing or running. Sign up for martial arts or other things that require your full and undivided attention.

[apiks]

Just a reminder to people going through depressive episodes. Sleeping will make you feel better than you were before you fell asleep.

(Only for depressive episodes though. Stronger/longer depression is slightly different)

[Yoink]

I'm supposed to go to 'work' tomorrow (for a measly $20 on top of the payment I already receive).
Really don't want to. I'm thinking I will check and see if I've been paid in the morning, and if I have just take the day off.
I have an appointment with the employment agency that's responsible for this job the next day, so I can always parley with them then.

[Akura]

So this is what hate is.

Yup. That's exactly what it is.

[highmax28]

Got my heart broken on Tuesday night/Wednesday morning, and I've been working on trying to get over her. Doesn't help Thursday I worked out with the Brentwood guys for the first time in three months and I hurt myself.

Every day since Wednesday morning I've been waking up feeling emotionally hurt and every day since Friday morning, I've been woken up by physical pain in one form or another.

The worst part about the emotional pain is not even watching Star Wars (which was fantastic) with my closest friend in high school (who's still the same as ever and I still love this guy and I haven't seen him in years) was enough to quell the pain of my broken heart. I was estatic and then I watched the nightmare before Christmas and then Sally was going off saying things I was feeling not too long ago and WHAM! Back into the hurt.

I want to get over her and move on, but it fucking hurts, and it doesn't help that I keep seeing her on Facebook because of her sharing my posts all the time, and plus, three or four people I know just got into a relationship, so the lovey posts are rampant.

It sucks because almost everything reminds me of her, and I really liked her, but she ended up telling me to not like her anymore and that I'm wasting my time on her. She also won't tell me how she thinks of me because it will give me false hope, and for the same reason she regrets the things we did. She tells me when she thinks that when she's ready to date, she won't want a relationship, and even if she was wanting to date, or be in a relationship, she told me it wouldn't necessarily be with me. She went on to say things like she doesn't want to hurt me, but already, a lot of the things she said already hurt me immensely...

Then on Friday, after not talking to her since Wednesday, she messages me on Facebook trying to act like nothing is fucking wrong. I told her I don't want to talk to her right now, and I told her she hurt me and I'm trying to get over her like she told me to. Last time I told her I didn't want to talk to her for a bit, she fucking cut herself, and now I'm scared that she is...

I fucking hate the situation... I fell wayyyyy too hard for her, and now I'm paying for it... My group leader said to look at why things went the way they did, and I don't even know where to begin... My head isn't even clear because she keeps popping up in it, and then I just want to break down and cry from that...

I don't even know what to do anymore... All I know is I'm defiantly going to step down from Facebook for a while, and hopefully cutting myself off from seeing her and those relationship posts will help me somewhat...

[TD1]

It sounds like it wasn't good for you, Highmax. Best to forget about her, really.



Also. Apiks is a bloody eejit with two front teeth that hang down to his chest, three arms and a brain the size of a squirrel and the libido of a crazed monkey taking crack for the fun of it.

Hrm.

Good day, everyone.

[TheBiggerFish]

Unsure whether to post this in the terrified thread or the sad one.

Nervous thread reminds you of its existence and beats a hasty retreat...

[apiks]

Hello, I am bloody eejit with two front teeth that hang down to his chest, three arms and a brain the size of a squirrel and the libido of a crazed monkey taking crack for the fun of it.


I agree, Highmax. You should find a way to stop caring about her. Take some time off, it'll help cool you down. Too much social pressure.


Also. Th4DwArfY1 is a flaming hick needing a crutch on his tongue and is with wicked front teeth, a cucumber shaped brain located in the lower part of his torso and the libido of a monk. And is like a teenage version of The Crow.

Hrm.

Good day everybody.