I can't tell if I'm depressed or just lovesick and am being a bitch about it. On one hand, I'm tired all the time, my sleep schedule's way out of whack, I hardly ever have contact with other people than my mom, I can't motivate myself to do anything, I'm growing to really dislike my job, my room's messy as hell because I'm too damn lazy to clean up after myself (and with family out of town for the weekend the house is swiftly descending into disorder too), thoughts of despair at my current predicament are becoming more and more common, with the way my job schedule works I never get home before around midnight which means I practivally never eat dinner anymore - in fact over the last few months I've been steadily eating less and less and I've actuslly lost 10 pounds sometime in the last 4 or 5 months, which is actually a bad thing at my age since I'm fairly young, and I'm slowly losing interest in stuff I do for entertainment like reading and RP and watching let's plays and stuff.
On the other hand, I knew my crush was working at our workplace so I went to visit her, stopping along the way at a few bakeries and delis she likes to get her food, hung around at the store where we work for something like 3 hours and ended up buying a bunch of other foods to share between us on her break, spending way more money than I normally do in a day, went home afterward all happy and made a really awesome dinner for myself, and am only back to my usual glum self now that the high's worn off and I've started to miss her again.
Maybe it's both now that I think of it, I don't think I've ever read anything that says you can't be in love and depressed at the same time.
I dunno.
I'm very much the same actually and I've found that it's a combination of love sickness depression and get this:Vitamin D/sunlight exposure. I suffer chronically from what they call SAD to the point of borderline depression (read I had to drop out of college cause I was getting so incredibly depressed every winter that I ended up just laying in my bed for a week and nearly died of dehydration before the dorm manager realized I hadn't left my room in a week.)
The love sickness/human contact can be substituted with getting a lot of sun/taking vitamin D daily in my case and both at the same time is a high for me that should probably be illegal haha. (I get all bouncy and shit and it's wierd cause I've never been an overly happy person.)
But yeah trying taking vitamin D, like double or triple what it says for daily recommended and see if that makes any difference. That or try and spend a lot of time outside when you aren't working (late evening jobs suck I know.)
One thing if you don't like pills is :Monster energy drinks and some others have a really high dose of vitamins/vitamin d in particular. Try having one a day if you can't bring yourself to take pills every morning. My favourite is the orange one.
So something a little more on topic:What makes me sad is people flirt with me occasionally or at least I think they are? Is a girl at the register in a grocery store giggling at what I say and talking about her day/work/my work when we've never met before flirting at all? I dunno. Point is I end up all awkward, can't make eye contact or even look in their direction and usually leave really quickly after. It's even worse cause I'm bi so this happens with cute guys sometimes too and I end up an awkward mess who cracks stupid jokes, leaves and then probably avoids going back to that store/cafe/ ect ever again.
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