I was about to say that if you're concerning about being self-indulgent and overly dramatic then you probably aren't, but then I realized that I often apologize for being self-indulgent and overly dramatic while
being self-indulgent and overly dramatic about it. I understand how you feel but I honestly don't know how to deal with it either seeing that how I cope with it is usually via display of unbridled anger. From what I have heard, though, the best you could do about it is let the thoughts swirl in your head but also fighting to be rational about it.
A cloud of meh has descended over me. I don't know why but all my energy and motivation is suddenly gone. I don't feel like I have anything to live for at the moment: not in the sense of wanting self destruction, but in the sense that existence seems boring for some reason. I don't think I know how to properly express my negative emotions, trying to sleep this off results in the thoughts swirling around in my brain keeping me up, but posting about them feels self-indulgent and overly dramatic, and that I'm just fishing for positivity or something. Which is probably not how it should feel, but I dunno.
Also on this point in particular I think my 20 cents is that no matter how boring or exciting existence really is, it doesn't really matter because you will usually get bored anyways. Part of why humans are so great is that we do so many astounding
ly stupid stuffs because we are bored, which result in a lot of cool things we have now.
So you have to realize that the reason existence seems so boring to you is just because of your brain. Now, I shouldn't presume to say that the way to deal with it is to be aware of it and be rational, because I can't be rational about it either, but that's what I think would be what one should strive for.
* Cinder apply hugs to HugoLuman